I Jinxed myself

Like I mentioned in my previous blogs I have been quite down for a while on various occasion and today I was slightly depressed yet also slightly happy. But now I am completely happy, reason? well this will seem very odd to many people but some how it made me feel quite happy and I will give my reasons after the background information.

Last week or so, I was feeling depressed and during that time I wanted to get sick or just something bad happy to me. I know that is bad thing to think about but I seriously wanted to get a fever or a cold or something. I had also told a few people my immune system is strong so it is difficult for me to get sick and to kind of brag that I have at least one strong element since I know I am very weak in strength and probably other things.

Anyway, this morning I was coughing a bit and usually when I cough in the morning I sometimes get a little nausea which occurred today. After the morning coughing I realised that my throat was feeling uncomfortable and I had become quite thirsty through out the day. I arrived home earlier cause I had an excursion to this "bstreetsmart" thing our school had to go to and there were quite a few other school there as well.

Back on Topic. . .

Arriving home I realised my throat still has the uncomfortable feeling and that I've been coughing a fair bit. I mention this to my mum to confirm whether I am getting a minor cold or not and she replied that I seemed so. This is where everyone will find it weird was that I was so happy and glad that I got sick. I know everyone think why would you be happy that you are sick or why would someone want to feel so uncomfortable and miserable. But really I dont feel miserable. . . uncomfortable. . . maybe in the throat but I just felt so much happier and alive now.

So the reason behind this is because I am slowly giving up on hope (a personal reason, don't ask why). I feel like that somethings I wish for would never come true or at least recently since there are a few things in the past that has like. . . (^v^).

Anyway, now that something I wanted has come I feel that there is hope. Ok I actually, think I don't make sense anymore (:P). Probably a stupid things I am doing like main of the other stupid things I have done but you know what I don't care right now. I am happy with a sore throat so who cares cause I am back to normal.

YAY~~~~

I know people would think I am weird now. hehe. But Don't Worry, I am fine and not weird at all (:P)