I dont know what changed but I think I finally realised that I should stop caring about these good or bad qualities which my friend D.H has recently just told me. After talking to her and Rebecca early today, I think I should stop because you know what I dont want to care and I dont really care. All this is doing is making me stress and other people worried, what is the point of that. Nothing. Therefore I should just live life as it comes. And if I happened to be tricked in some way by someone in the future who I may or may not know now than I can see it is a way for me to be able to learn and move on and don't fall for something like that again. Plus I have so many people around me that I love and care about so I doubt that anything bad would happen here.
About that photo, I decided. . . well I really haven't decided but I dont care if I ever see it or I don't. To me I already have everything, I don't need to have to look pretty and hot cause looks isn't everything, haha~ (:P). As long as the people I love, loves me back for who I am, then I shall be happy. So I am Back to normal. I am going to be Happy and Positive, though I won't be to happy and positive about the upcoming prelim exam but other than that I am. I know one good appearance I have. I am A-DORA-BLE!!! hehe~~~ (if I haven't mention it before my english name is Dora, which I dont think I have before.) I don't actually know if I am adorable I highly doubt I am but you know what who cares it has my name it and that is all that matters. Hahahahhaha~
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Friday, 30 August 2013
Thursday, 29 August 2013
Feeling. . .
I have no idea what I am feeling or what I am thinking cause really there is a mixture of all. I feel depressed and insecure but then I have a neutral feeling on top of that I do feel happy and none of these emotion match up, it is just getting me all confused.
Ok, I will start from the start. Today is my maths tutoring day therefore I need to stay until 4:00 before going to tutoring with my friend, A.Z. Well, today Rebecca joined me and M.V was going to join us later as she was able to go home early therefore meeting us in at Strathfield. Like last week, I saw Ling and caught the train with him however he didn't accompany me to Strathfield which seems fair since these weeks would be quite busy cause of the prelim exams coming up.
Anyway, on the train as it drew near the station, Ling had mention the picture that he had told me a couple of days before but was unwilling to show me. Rebecca asked to see it which he agreed and showed it to her for a few seconds. This kind of upset me as I was curious and come to think of it I wouldn't really be happy to see it either but I still want to see it but. . . Anyway, I was feeling upset and unhappy and it happened that the train has arrived at the station that I need to get off at. I walked out without looking back at Ling and he was trying to cheer me up and say that he would show me next time. Ling had his arm around me while I was walking out but my mood took control over me and I just didn't want to look back. I just wanted to get out of the train. I kind of wish I didn't do it but another part of me just says you were upset sounds reasonable, but honestly I feel bad and wish I didn't react the way I did. (I would get back to this feeling later).
So getting off the train, I walked down the ramp with Rebecca and C.t behind us as she was with us during that train ride. Rebecca commented that she was hot. This further annoyed me or rather started to make me worry and feel slightly insecure though I seem to always feel insecure. Anyway, I just walked away from both of them and Rebecca was just being honest I probably shouldn't have reacted that way either. I realised this once I reach the bottom of the ramp and decided to just forget for the meantime and just try to enjoy the rest of the day. I put on happy and positive attitude until I parted with Rebecca as she had to go to the bank while I decided to buy a drink and food before meeting back up with her and M.V. Ling had texted me and again telling me he would show me the picture next time we go out. At first I didn't answer until later he texted "But for now focus on maths" that is when I decided to text back. I told him I don't think I can which he later replied "then to bad". I decided at that time, that I don't want to care about it anymore therefore telling him I dont care anymore which was responded by "thats good." However I know that I can't not care about this cause that is what I do I over think things.
The rest of the afternoon spent with Rebecca and M.V was great and I had fun. We had gone to a restaurant where M.V and Rebecca ordered food while I decided not to as I didn't have time. Though I did take some kimchi which was chilli but surprisingly I could take it (YAY ^.^). I can stand chilli now. . . I think.
Maths tutoring wasn't good at all, I was distracted about the events that had happened and I was feeling quite tired. I also had to worry about the weird dude that kept turning his head slightly so he can look at me from the corner of his eyes which I caught he a few times. (sigh =.=). I also found out his name is Jack and as I thought he does go to Ling's school but this weird Jack guy is a junior. Anyway, I was happy towards the end of tutoring as both Alice and Rebecca who had texted me made me feel lightened up. Though now leading in my state of confusion of emotions.
I am still upset about not seeing this photo of this apparently hot and pretty asian girl Rebecca had told me. However, I understand why Ling didn't show me cause I know I would still be unhappy maybe not as much as I felt not seeing it maybe more. Not sure. I understand that if I see this photo it would definitely make me feel insecure but I still feel insecure whether I see it or not. I actually feel insecure even if I don't know about this. I always feel insecure. *breathe out*
Alright, maybe this isn't a big deal. . . IT STILL MAKES ME WORRIED AND INSECURE!!!
Ok. . . I shouldn't care about this everyone has their good qualities. This girl from what I heard is attractive which is a very good quality for her. I do have other good qualities like. . . something or. . . nothing (=.=) yeah probably I have no good qualities what so ever. I am just. . . Damn I need to stop going down this road and putting myself down. Ok. Maybe I can't see my good qualities but other people might be able to. I actually asked my mum about what good qualities I have. Of course I know that parents would never say that you have none or tell your bad qualities. . . actually my mum kind of did. She said my good qualities are also my bad qualities. Well that is just great so I was right (=.=). Anyway, my mum said that I am honest, kind-hearted and friendly which in the opposite effect could cause myself to be used by other people which is what I am most afraid of. I am afraid that someone would use me just for the sake of these qualities of mine. I don't want to be tricked or used cause I take these things to heart. I know I am someone that can be pushed around often not always but often. I want to avoid those who may use me but how do you know they would and how do you know they won't. I trust people until they are proven to be untrustworthy. I DON'T LIKE BEING USED OR TRICK and probably the reason why I get jealous cause I believe that there are people out there better than me and more likeable than me therefore people would rather be with them then me. Which is understandable cause apparently I have no good qualities because they end up just being one of my bad qualities.
Ok, I am going to stop this. Cause you know what I don't want to be down this road again. Been here before and promised I would never go back once I was out. I am going to clear my head. Just think positive thoughts. Be happy and think of all the good times. Just need to be myself again the happy and positive self again. Probably should avoid skype at this stage once I am back I would go on. *breathe*
Ok, I will start from the start. Today is my maths tutoring day therefore I need to stay until 4:00 before going to tutoring with my friend, A.Z. Well, today Rebecca joined me and M.V was going to join us later as she was able to go home early therefore meeting us in at Strathfield. Like last week, I saw Ling and caught the train with him however he didn't accompany me to Strathfield which seems fair since these weeks would be quite busy cause of the prelim exams coming up.
Anyway, on the train as it drew near the station, Ling had mention the picture that he had told me a couple of days before but was unwilling to show me. Rebecca asked to see it which he agreed and showed it to her for a few seconds. This kind of upset me as I was curious and come to think of it I wouldn't really be happy to see it either but I still want to see it but. . . Anyway, I was feeling upset and unhappy and it happened that the train has arrived at the station that I need to get off at. I walked out without looking back at Ling and he was trying to cheer me up and say that he would show me next time. Ling had his arm around me while I was walking out but my mood took control over me and I just didn't want to look back. I just wanted to get out of the train. I kind of wish I didn't do it but another part of me just says you were upset sounds reasonable, but honestly I feel bad and wish I didn't react the way I did. (I would get back to this feeling later).
So getting off the train, I walked down the ramp with Rebecca and C.t behind us as she was with us during that train ride. Rebecca commented that she was hot. This further annoyed me or rather started to make me worry and feel slightly insecure though I seem to always feel insecure. Anyway, I just walked away from both of them and Rebecca was just being honest I probably shouldn't have reacted that way either. I realised this once I reach the bottom of the ramp and decided to just forget for the meantime and just try to enjoy the rest of the day. I put on happy and positive attitude until I parted with Rebecca as she had to go to the bank while I decided to buy a drink and food before meeting back up with her and M.V. Ling had texted me and again telling me he would show me the picture next time we go out. At first I didn't answer until later he texted "But for now focus on maths" that is when I decided to text back. I told him I don't think I can which he later replied "then to bad". I decided at that time, that I don't want to care about it anymore therefore telling him I dont care anymore which was responded by "thats good." However I know that I can't not care about this cause that is what I do I over think things.
The rest of the afternoon spent with Rebecca and M.V was great and I had fun. We had gone to a restaurant where M.V and Rebecca ordered food while I decided not to as I didn't have time. Though I did take some kimchi which was chilli but surprisingly I could take it (YAY ^.^). I can stand chilli now. . . I think.
Maths tutoring wasn't good at all, I was distracted about the events that had happened and I was feeling quite tired. I also had to worry about the weird dude that kept turning his head slightly so he can look at me from the corner of his eyes which I caught he a few times. (sigh =.=). I also found out his name is Jack and as I thought he does go to Ling's school but this weird Jack guy is a junior. Anyway, I was happy towards the end of tutoring as both Alice and Rebecca who had texted me made me feel lightened up. Though now leading in my state of confusion of emotions.
I am still upset about not seeing this photo of this apparently hot and pretty asian girl Rebecca had told me. However, I understand why Ling didn't show me cause I know I would still be unhappy maybe not as much as I felt not seeing it maybe more. Not sure. I understand that if I see this photo it would definitely make me feel insecure but I still feel insecure whether I see it or not. I actually feel insecure even if I don't know about this. I always feel insecure. *breathe out*
Alright, maybe this isn't a big deal. . . IT STILL MAKES ME WORRIED AND INSECURE!!!
Ok. . . I shouldn't care about this everyone has their good qualities. This girl from what I heard is attractive which is a very good quality for her. I do have other good qualities like. . . something or. . . nothing (=.=) yeah probably I have no good qualities what so ever. I am just. . . Damn I need to stop going down this road and putting myself down. Ok. Maybe I can't see my good qualities but other people might be able to. I actually asked my mum about what good qualities I have. Of course I know that parents would never say that you have none or tell your bad qualities. . . actually my mum kind of did. She said my good qualities are also my bad qualities. Well that is just great so I was right (=.=). Anyway, my mum said that I am honest, kind-hearted and friendly which in the opposite effect could cause myself to be used by other people which is what I am most afraid of. I am afraid that someone would use me just for the sake of these qualities of mine. I don't want to be tricked or used cause I take these things to heart. I know I am someone that can be pushed around often not always but often. I want to avoid those who may use me but how do you know they would and how do you know they won't. I trust people until they are proven to be untrustworthy. I DON'T LIKE BEING USED OR TRICK and probably the reason why I get jealous cause I believe that there are people out there better than me and more likeable than me therefore people would rather be with them then me. Which is understandable cause apparently I have no good qualities because they end up just being one of my bad qualities.
Ok, I am going to stop this. Cause you know what I don't want to be down this road again. Been here before and promised I would never go back once I was out. I am going to clear my head. Just think positive thoughts. Be happy and think of all the good times. Just need to be myself again the happy and positive self again. Probably should avoid skype at this stage once I am back I would go on. *breathe*
Wednesday, 28 August 2013
Difficult times when I Miss You
The feeling of missing someone can never disappear until you are right next to that person yet even then you still miss them. There are 3 things I am missing right now.
1. My Sister, I don't see her as often as I used to and don't talk her as much as I would like. I really miss the times when she used to live in the same house, where I can talk to her when ever I like. I Love My Sister and I admire her in some many ways. I wish I could tell her right now how much she means to me but when I am next her I just can't but it into words. She was the one I depended on when I was young and she will still be the one I would turn to when I need help.
2. My Friends, I know I saw them today but you know even though you go to school with them every day, you dont seem them that often. Like Rebecca, I rarely ever see her in school as I only have one class that we are together and that she usually goes to the library at recess and lunch except today lunch (^.^). I Miss and Love All My Friends. They are with me where ever I go helping me along the way and I shall do the same whether I can or not. Friends are the Family we choose for ourselves.
3. Well, I really don't think I need to say the third person I really miss. He is someone I would think about day and night. The person I have blogged about quite often, that special someone that lives within my heart. Hehe (@^.^@). I have seen him for a while and the times I have seen him is only for a brief time. I know now that it is a busy time and if you think about it next year it would be so much more hectic but I can't help but wonder and think and miss and love and want and need and. . . (^.^ this can go on forever).
Anyway, I thought since I am already distracted from my study might as well blog.
So to the people I LOVE and CARE about I just want to say I MISS you very very very much. Hehe(^v^)
1. My Sister, I don't see her as often as I used to and don't talk her as much as I would like. I really miss the times when she used to live in the same house, where I can talk to her when ever I like. I Love My Sister and I admire her in some many ways. I wish I could tell her right now how much she means to me but when I am next her I just can't but it into words. She was the one I depended on when I was young and she will still be the one I would turn to when I need help.
2. My Friends, I know I saw them today but you know even though you go to school with them every day, you dont seem them that often. Like Rebecca, I rarely ever see her in school as I only have one class that we are together and that she usually goes to the library at recess and lunch except today lunch (^.^). I Miss and Love All My Friends. They are with me where ever I go helping me along the way and I shall do the same whether I can or not. Friends are the Family we choose for ourselves.
3. Well, I really don't think I need to say the third person I really miss. He is someone I would think about day and night. The person I have blogged about quite often, that special someone that lives within my heart. Hehe (@^.^@). I have seen him for a while and the times I have seen him is only for a brief time. I know now that it is a busy time and if you think about it next year it would be so much more hectic but I can't help but wonder and think and miss and love and want and need and. . . (^.^ this can go on forever).
Anyway, I thought since I am already distracted from my study might as well blog.
So to the people I LOVE and CARE about I just want to say I MISS you very very very much. Hehe(^v^)
Saturday, 24 August 2013
Spaced Out
I feeling quite spaced out today, I dont know if I am happy or sad, angry or worried, sleepy or excited. I just feel like an empty shell while my spirit decided to wonder into another dimension. Probably sound a little crazy but honestly I have no idea where I am.
I had a normal saturday with tutoring and so forth but I just don't feel normal. I feeling a bit weird. . . Kind of hard to explain really.
I really need to get my head together before I completely lose my mind and start acting hyper which I think is just about to peak any minute. So I probably should stop blogging before I ramble on about something I don't even know yet.
Hehe :)
I had a normal saturday with tutoring and so forth but I just don't feel normal. I feeling a bit weird. . . Kind of hard to explain really.
I really need to get my head together before I completely lose my mind and start acting hyper which I think is just about to peak any minute. So I probably should stop blogging before I ramble on about something I don't even know yet.
Hehe :)
Thursday, 22 August 2013
Worst Thursday Ever~~~
I just isn't my day again. It is bad enough I sprained my ankle yesterday but I have to do it again at the station. My ankle was actually feeling much better in the afternoon until that unfortunate incident.
You see today we were able to leave school early as we had no teacher for our last lesson. So I thought I go to the station and wait to see if Ling will be there. Nothing really went to what I expected but nothing ever does so I guess I got to get use to that. Anyway, I did end up meeting him and catching the same train together. We made our way to the station and towards the platform I was little slow then he is as I was trying to walk normally but not to fast that it would hurt me ankle again. As we were going down the stairs to the platform my right foot slipped and I some how sprained the same ankle again. It was just getting better (=.=).
Ling held on to my laptop for me and wanted to carry my school bag as well but I refused as I just didn't want him to hold everything. I started limping again. Ling seem very worried about and had so that I look really tired and unwell which is true since I do have a minor cold but thats ok, nothing big. He was upset about the fact that I refused to cancel my maths tutoring as he wanted me to go home and rest. I refused cause I don't want to be behing the work that I am meant to get even though I really did kind of want to return home. I had also called my mum to ask if she could pick me up later tonight as I don't think I would be able to make my own way home or I could but it would take quite a long time. I decided to get to my tutoring place first and not wait with A.Z and her friend C.L as I would take to long to get to tutoring in the first place.
Tutoring felt so long and annoying as I was getting a runny nose and using to much tissues that I think I have chapped skin under my nose. Remember how I said I was kind of happy I was sick, well now I regret that I even wished now that I remember all the misery it brings (T^T). I couldn't wait till I got home and I wished I did listen to Ling and just go home or accepted my mum's suggestion when she said I can go home and not go tutoring but I am stubborn and well study is important especially maths since it is the best subject I have.
What is done, is done. I can't change it no matter how much I want to now. For now I need to get better. Drink lots of water, eat healthy, take some cold medicine if necessary and get this ankle healed up. I don't want to make anyone else worry or get Ling upset/angry which he said he will if the condition worsens. I'm sure it wont. . . hopefully. Don't want to jinx myself anymore that I probably have.
New goal is to get better. Lets Go~!~!~! ^o^
You see today we were able to leave school early as we had no teacher for our last lesson. So I thought I go to the station and wait to see if Ling will be there. Nothing really went to what I expected but nothing ever does so I guess I got to get use to that. Anyway, I did end up meeting him and catching the same train together. We made our way to the station and towards the platform I was little slow then he is as I was trying to walk normally but not to fast that it would hurt me ankle again. As we were going down the stairs to the platform my right foot slipped and I some how sprained the same ankle again. It was just getting better (=.=).
Ling held on to my laptop for me and wanted to carry my school bag as well but I refused as I just didn't want him to hold everything. I started limping again. Ling seem very worried about and had so that I look really tired and unwell which is true since I do have a minor cold but thats ok, nothing big. He was upset about the fact that I refused to cancel my maths tutoring as he wanted me to go home and rest. I refused cause I don't want to be behing the work that I am meant to get even though I really did kind of want to return home. I had also called my mum to ask if she could pick me up later tonight as I don't think I would be able to make my own way home or I could but it would take quite a long time. I decided to get to my tutoring place first and not wait with A.Z and her friend C.L as I would take to long to get to tutoring in the first place.
Tutoring felt so long and annoying as I was getting a runny nose and using to much tissues that I think I have chapped skin under my nose. Remember how I said I was kind of happy I was sick, well now I regret that I even wished now that I remember all the misery it brings (T^T). I couldn't wait till I got home and I wished I did listen to Ling and just go home or accepted my mum's suggestion when she said I can go home and not go tutoring but I am stubborn and well study is important especially maths since it is the best subject I have.
What is done, is done. I can't change it no matter how much I want to now. For now I need to get better. Drink lots of water, eat healthy, take some cold medicine if necessary and get this ankle healed up. I don't want to make anyone else worry or get Ling upset/angry which he said he will if the condition worsens. I'm sure it wont. . . hopefully. Don't want to jinx myself anymore that I probably have.
New goal is to get better. Lets Go~!~!~! ^o^
Wednesday, 21 August 2013
I have been Cursed~
I can't say today was a particularly bad day for me cause I haven't been quite depressed throughout the day. However, today just isn'y my day and I believe someone has cursed me. Noo~ Well I don't actually believe that but today really has given a lot of bad luck to me just hoping that the piano theory exam went well and was not cursed as well.
Anyway, so today is the 21st of August and the date of my big 3rd Grade Music Theory exam. The morning I started off ok until I noticed I got a bleeding nose which was a little odd. I haven't had one in quite a long time so it was kind of strange for me to get this morning but I thought "Ahh it should be fine." The minute, it stopped I rushed out to catch my bus and catch the normal train I would always catch. I had a pretty average day and my friend M.V arrived at school after being away the last couple of days. She had apparently caused a crack in one of the small bones in her ankle during her fall last friday. Today she had a bandaged on her ankle and limped her way around the school as well later getting a key to the elevator making her way around the school much easier.
Today was also the first time enter one of the schools elevators which I feared a little since I don't really just the elevators there but everything went well thankfully. After fourth period today, I had to leave early to get to my piano exam which I was so nervous about and we had to rush a little as my mum was scared we won't get there in time since she might lose her way around the streets. We had stopped at Campsie to get some lunch before continuing on our way. We rushed to the car that was parked by the kerbside and I was worrying about the exam as well as hoping to get there in time therefore forgetting that the pathway was a few inches higher than the street. I tripped and sprained my ankle. Geez, it really hurt though I know it was too serious but it just killed me. We had no ice or anything cold around us so I wasn't able to place some cold on my sprain ankle but not moving and letting it rest has made work quite well other than me limping around the place.
I had to limp my way to the the examination room and limp my way out. It wasn't to painful when I walk just going up and down some stairs would be a little difficult and I do not wish to move my ankle to much as it is still hurts at times. I confirmed with my mum that my ankle should be fine, the latest the pain would last is around about 2 - 3 days and earliest by 2morrow morning. Good thing I didn't do to much damage like M.V did *phew*
Anyway, the exam was not bad actually as I had expected though I had so much time left over. It was a 2 hour exam and I finished it in 1 hour spent half an hour checking and rechecking as I noticed more and more people left the examination room early. Thought to myself "what the heck? lets leave early to." So I returned my exam to the supervises and left. Took me a while to contact my mum but I ended up finding her anyway.
This is not the end just yet cause on the way home, I had another nose bleed and I am think 2 times in one day what are the chances of that. I am not a person who would normally get it and a little bit started to worry about it. I decided to confirm this with my mum and asked if everything would be alright. She confirmed that it should be fine, thought I am not entirely convinced.
Well that was my cursed day and my mum said that today people who were born on a mouse year would be lucky (=.=). She lied!!! Not that I really believe such things but it is never bad to believe in some random good luck.
Well lets hope that this ankle shall stop hurting by tomorrow.
Anyway, so today is the 21st of August and the date of my big 3rd Grade Music Theory exam. The morning I started off ok until I noticed I got a bleeding nose which was a little odd. I haven't had one in quite a long time so it was kind of strange for me to get this morning but I thought "Ahh it should be fine." The minute, it stopped I rushed out to catch my bus and catch the normal train I would always catch. I had a pretty average day and my friend M.V arrived at school after being away the last couple of days. She had apparently caused a crack in one of the small bones in her ankle during her fall last friday. Today she had a bandaged on her ankle and limped her way around the school as well later getting a key to the elevator making her way around the school much easier.
Today was also the first time enter one of the schools elevators which I feared a little since I don't really just the elevators there but everything went well thankfully. After fourth period today, I had to leave early to get to my piano exam which I was so nervous about and we had to rush a little as my mum was scared we won't get there in time since she might lose her way around the streets. We had stopped at Campsie to get some lunch before continuing on our way. We rushed to the car that was parked by the kerbside and I was worrying about the exam as well as hoping to get there in time therefore forgetting that the pathway was a few inches higher than the street. I tripped and sprained my ankle. Geez, it really hurt though I know it was too serious but it just killed me. We had no ice or anything cold around us so I wasn't able to place some cold on my sprain ankle but not moving and letting it rest has made work quite well other than me limping around the place.
I had to limp my way to the the examination room and limp my way out. It wasn't to painful when I walk just going up and down some stairs would be a little difficult and I do not wish to move my ankle to much as it is still hurts at times. I confirmed with my mum that my ankle should be fine, the latest the pain would last is around about 2 - 3 days and earliest by 2morrow morning. Good thing I didn't do to much damage like M.V did *phew*
Anyway, the exam was not bad actually as I had expected though I had so much time left over. It was a 2 hour exam and I finished it in 1 hour spent half an hour checking and rechecking as I noticed more and more people left the examination room early. Thought to myself "what the heck? lets leave early to." So I returned my exam to the supervises and left. Took me a while to contact my mum but I ended up finding her anyway.
This is not the end just yet cause on the way home, I had another nose bleed and I am think 2 times in one day what are the chances of that. I am not a person who would normally get it and a little bit started to worry about it. I decided to confirm this with my mum and asked if everything would be alright. She confirmed that it should be fine, thought I am not entirely convinced.
Well that was my cursed day and my mum said that today people who were born on a mouse year would be lucky (=.=). She lied!!! Not that I really believe such things but it is never bad to believe in some random good luck.
Well lets hope that this ankle shall stop hurting by tomorrow.
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
I Jinxed myself
Like I mentioned in my previous blogs I have been quite down for a while on various occasion and today I was slightly depressed yet also slightly happy. But now I am completely happy, reason? well this will seem very odd to many people but some how it made me feel quite happy and I will give my reasons after the background information.
Last week or so, I was feeling depressed and during that time I wanted to get sick or just something bad happy to me. I know that is bad thing to think about but I seriously wanted to get a fever or a cold or something. I had also told a few people my immune system is strong so it is difficult for me to get sick and to kind of brag that I have at least one strong element since I know I am very weak in strength and probably other things.
Anyway, this morning I was coughing a bit and usually when I cough in the morning I sometimes get a little nausea which occurred today. After the morning coughing I realised that my throat was feeling uncomfortable and I had become quite thirsty through out the day. I arrived home earlier cause I had an excursion to this "bstreetsmart" thing our school had to go to and there were quite a few other school there as well.
Back on Topic. . .
Arriving home I realised my throat still has the uncomfortable feeling and that I've been coughing a fair bit. I mention this to my mum to confirm whether I am getting a minor cold or not and she replied that I seemed so. This is where everyone will find it weird was that I was so happy and glad that I got sick. I know everyone think why would you be happy that you are sick or why would someone want to feel so uncomfortable and miserable. But really I dont feel miserable. . . uncomfortable. . . maybe in the throat but I just felt so much happier and alive now.
So the reason behind this is because I am slowly giving up on hope (a personal reason, don't ask why). I feel like that somethings I wish for would never come true or at least recently since there are a few things in the past that has like. . . (^v^).
Anyway, now that something I wanted has come I feel that there is hope. Ok I actually, think I don't make sense anymore (:P). Probably a stupid things I am doing like main of the other stupid things I have done but you know what I don't care right now. I am happy with a sore throat so who cares cause I am back to normal.
YAY~~~~
I know people would think I am weird now. hehe. But Don't Worry, I am fine and not weird at all (:P)
Last week or so, I was feeling depressed and during that time I wanted to get sick or just something bad happy to me. I know that is bad thing to think about but I seriously wanted to get a fever or a cold or something. I had also told a few people my immune system is strong so it is difficult for me to get sick and to kind of brag that I have at least one strong element since I know I am very weak in strength and probably other things.
Anyway, this morning I was coughing a bit and usually when I cough in the morning I sometimes get a little nausea which occurred today. After the morning coughing I realised that my throat was feeling uncomfortable and I had become quite thirsty through out the day. I arrived home earlier cause I had an excursion to this "bstreetsmart" thing our school had to go to and there were quite a few other school there as well.
Back on Topic. . .
Arriving home I realised my throat still has the uncomfortable feeling and that I've been coughing a fair bit. I mention this to my mum to confirm whether I am getting a minor cold or not and she replied that I seemed so. This is where everyone will find it weird was that I was so happy and glad that I got sick. I know everyone think why would you be happy that you are sick or why would someone want to feel so uncomfortable and miserable. But really I dont feel miserable. . . uncomfortable. . . maybe in the throat but I just felt so much happier and alive now.
So the reason behind this is because I am slowly giving up on hope (a personal reason, don't ask why). I feel like that somethings I wish for would never come true or at least recently since there are a few things in the past that has like. . . (^v^).
Anyway, now that something I wanted has come I feel that there is hope. Ok I actually, think I don't make sense anymore (:P). Probably a stupid things I am doing like main of the other stupid things I have done but you know what I don't care right now. I am happy with a sore throat so who cares cause I am back to normal.
YAY~~~~
I know people would think I am weird now. hehe. But Don't Worry, I am fine and not weird at all (:P)
Monday, 19 August 2013
Sigh~
Something has been messing with my head ever since thursday, I feel like I can't get anything right, I do the most stupidest things. For example, thursday night after dinner I was meant to through something in the bin and place my bowl and chopsticks in the sink however I ended up dropping my chopsticks in the bin. (=.=) I mean seriously what was I thinking though the minute I dropped it in I realised what I have done and I gave myself a good laugh which I believe my mum might think I was a little bit crazy.
Besides that I have done so much little mistakes that I normally won't make or that I am just not thinking. Other than feeling stupid and not using my brain, since yesterday I have been feeling quite down and I am not ever quite sure what is the reason I know what started it but I know that I was over it but my mood just didn't lighten up I just couldn't find it in myself to smile.
It is just weird.
The minute I am alone my mood drops immediately like on the peak of a roller-coaster. I don't think I want to be alone however I don't want to go on skype and face my friends and depressed them which come to think typing on this would let them know anyway. I want to be alone and just take a break of skype though I know my friends would be suspicious as I am always 24/7 on skype (sigh =.=).
There is another part of my wanting to go on skype cause being with my friends and talking to them just makes me so happy even though I might sound a little dull, I am just happy that they are there making me smile and laugh and basically listening to me when I need them.
Now the decision is going on or not. If I want to just sulk by myself for today or go on and talk to my friends and brighten my mood. But honestly I feel selfish always leaning on my friends, they do so much for me and I feel like I do so little. I know some of my friends would think otherwise but to me, this is what I feel and I want to do more though they seem to think I do enough.
I want to be able to hide my feelings therefore meaning less worries for everybody around me. I want to be able to remain happy and positive and smile so that I will be able to lighten everybody's mood knowing that they are happy.
Hmmm... I didn't think I would type this much. oh well (>~<). I just wonder whether I should go on or not.
Go On. . .
Don't Go On. . .
Go On. . .
Don't Go On. . .
Go On. . .
Don't Go On. . .
Go On. . .
Don't Go On. . .
Go On. . .
Don't Go On. . .
???
Alright I decided, I shall not make my friends worry. I am going to go clear my head go on and pretend that nothing has happened. So please if anyone I know reads this try to not ask and let it pass for now unless I decide to be selfish again and start ranting which I shall persist to not do. ^.^ I must be strong. I will improve myself. So Don't Worry, Be Happy and I shall be TOO~ (new motto for me)
Sunday, 18 August 2013
A Un4gettable Date~
Another month gone by as this date has come around once more. Memories comes flooding back though even if it isn't on this day I would always think back to that exact day. I honestly don't know what to say, it has been 4 months since Ling and I dated while over these months I have experience so much good and some bad which turns into good later on.
I have worried more but have been happier more been sad a few times yet I have felt protected a few times. All these made my life more interesting and I feel just so happy and overwhelmed through all the good and the bad. I love Ling more than I could really express. I miss him more than he would know. About 90% of my day my mind would be filled with memories and thoughts about him, wishing he was with right at that moment. I might not be able to show that I love him and miss him more than he does but inside me I believe I do love him and miss him more.
I worry about him often though he might not need as he is quite strong and. . . (>v<) Sowwie got distracted there. (^v^)
Anyway, back to my point. I want to post a blog on this particular date cause it is special for me to reminisce about something that has brought so much Happiness into my life.
LOVE YOU HUN~~~
(Still unhappy about yesterday though =.=)
I have worried more but have been happier more been sad a few times yet I have felt protected a few times. All these made my life more interesting and I feel just so happy and overwhelmed through all the good and the bad. I love Ling more than I could really express. I miss him more than he would know. About 90% of my day my mind would be filled with memories and thoughts about him, wishing he was with right at that moment. I might not be able to show that I love him and miss him more than he does but inside me I believe I do love him and miss him more.
I worry about him often though he might not need as he is quite strong and. . . (>v<) Sowwie got distracted there. (^v^)
Anyway, back to my point. I want to post a blog on this particular date cause it is special for me to reminisce about something that has brought so much Happiness into my life.
LOVE YOU HUN~~~
(Still unhappy about yesterday though =.=)
Thursday, 15 August 2013
A recent craving for Rockmelon~
I recently been craving for some rockmelon and I believe it started with my mum accidentally telling me there is rockmelon at home when in fact is was a papaya. Ever since then, I have been hoping we get some rockmelon in fact any kind of fruit. Maybe watermelon, honeydew, strawberry something that should be ripe around this time of the year.
Ahhh~~~ I am also craving for mangos. Sweet delicious mangoes (mmmmm.... ^v^)
Sowwie kind of went of track there, just thinking about mangoes make me. . . (@^v^@)
I did it again, hehehe. As you can see my favourite fruit is mangoes. Anyway my point is I want some fruit other than the normal ones like, oranges, mandarins, apples and bananas though I dont mind having some Bananas (>v<). I missed the good old times when I eat a fruit everyday.
Ahhh~~~ I am also craving for mangos. Sweet delicious mangoes (mmmmm.... ^v^)
Sowwie kind of went of track there, just thinking about mangoes make me. . . (@^v^@)
I did it again, hehehe. As you can see my favourite fruit is mangoes. Anyway my point is I want some fruit other than the normal ones like, oranges, mandarins, apples and bananas though I dont mind having some Bananas (>v<). I missed the good old times when I eat a fruit everyday.
I WANT ROCKMELON~~~
Another thursday (sigh)
I guess from my title u can see it is another thursday which means I have maths tutoring again. But, it wasn't that bad as the title might suggest. (:P) I began the day feeling quite tired since I didn't get enough sleep as I have hoped for but there are more important things then sleep sometimes like Friends and Ling. (^.^) Anyway, Once I arrived at the station near my school my tiredness slipped away and all of a sudden I felt so happy and high and kind of crazy as my friends who were with me at the time thought. But I didn't mind cause I was happy and this was one of the rare times that I have been happy over the previous week. Come to think of it, my apetite is back and better than ever. (WOOOO~~~ ^v^)
Anyway back on topic.
Like last week, this afternoon Ling wasn't going to accompany me in the often now which I was quite disheartened about cause I have missed him. Over the past 2 weeks I have only seen him twice for a few short seconds. One was last wednesday when we unexpectedly saw each other in the morning before school and last monday after school as we both travelled home. Even though it is the same train he was at one end of the platform and I was at the either and honestly it was quite lonely since I couldn't find both of my friends who normally caught the train with me. But I had Denise over the text I guess that improved things.
Ahh~~~ Off topic again anyway.
I am so happy and gratefully and thankfully that my beautiful friend Rebecca accompanied me. (^.^) Last week I barely got to see her this week I have finally got some time with and talk, made my day so much better. Of course, time together didn't last long as Rebecca had to leave around 3:50 which was around about the time A.Z arrived which was actually earlier than normal. Anyway, I had a great time with Rebecca even though it was short. Reminds I had meet or rather saw an old friend of mine who I believe doesn't remember me or she doesn't want to remember me. I know that she didn't quite like me when we first meet and I can't say I liked her cause to be honest she looked evil to me (:P). She was ok but never really had much things in common with her.
Anyway, tutoring was the same thing learning something new doing some questions nothing different. Only that the guy who learns the same things as I do looked at me while the teacher was teaching. Reason behind this cause he kept changing his example and he looked at me was like "what the". I just awkwardly smile looking back at the board.
It has been an interesting day, not bad for a thursday much better than the lonely thursday last week. Hoping next week, I will not be alone again.
Bye-bees~~~ (I think I am getting sick of using "bye-bees" need to think of something else.)
Monday, 12 August 2013
Low self-esteem
I have been over thinking again today which seems normal cause I do nearly every single day however today it is a little bit more often. I know, I have a low self-esteem and not a lot of confidence and I have quite a few fears and worries but I want to change all this.
I was texting D.H on the way home like we always do after school as both of us travel home by ourselves and it does become quite lonely. I had discussed with her about my worries while she comforted me and told me to trust in myself, confirming somethings I do know. I have to thank D.H she had lightened up my spirits not all the way but close enough. So Thank you so much D.H, I know that I can trust you and that you would nearly always be there for me. (^.^)
Anyway I decided to ask my mum about my worries and from what I said she had told me that I can get easily hurt. She knows from my personality that I will get hurt and I don't disagree with her cause I know that when I fall than I will fall hard. My mum told me be more conservative and keep myself safe from harms way. She doesn't want me to be so closed that I shy away from arrive thing that could possible harm me but closed enough that I wouldn't get hurt as easily. However it is easier said than done. It is hard to keep myself from worrying and fearing the worst even though chances are that what I am worrying about would never happen.
Worrying and fearing the worst allows me to be prepared and not fall as hard as I would normally. But I need to stop thinking like that enjoy my life, enjoy my unknown future. I need to live life. *Phew* I will take small steps at a time until reach the day I finally can stop worrying as much as I do and be more confident. I need to believe and trust in myself and my abilities. ^.^
Bye-bees~
I was texting D.H on the way home like we always do after school as both of us travel home by ourselves and it does become quite lonely. I had discussed with her about my worries while she comforted me and told me to trust in myself, confirming somethings I do know. I have to thank D.H she had lightened up my spirits not all the way but close enough. So Thank you so much D.H, I know that I can trust you and that you would nearly always be there for me. (^.^)
Anyway I decided to ask my mum about my worries and from what I said she had told me that I can get easily hurt. She knows from my personality that I will get hurt and I don't disagree with her cause I know that when I fall than I will fall hard. My mum told me be more conservative and keep myself safe from harms way. She doesn't want me to be so closed that I shy away from arrive thing that could possible harm me but closed enough that I wouldn't get hurt as easily. However it is easier said than done. It is hard to keep myself from worrying and fearing the worst even though chances are that what I am worrying about would never happen.
Worrying and fearing the worst allows me to be prepared and not fall as hard as I would normally. But I need to stop thinking like that enjoy my life, enjoy my unknown future. I need to live life. *Phew* I will take small steps at a time until reach the day I finally can stop worrying as much as I do and be more confident. I need to believe and trust in myself and my abilities. ^.^
Bye-bees~
Saturday, 10 August 2013
Camera Shy
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| Lady |
No matter how hard my mum tried to get a perfect picture, Lady would not co-operate. After a long time my Lady couldn't take it and started to slowly crawl away until she was able to bolt out the door straight back downstairs. I was laughing my head of at her as I watched her bolt away from my mum. My mum nor I could got a better picture but it was just so entertaining to see lady shy away from the camera avoiding and eye contact to the camera. I only have a few good shots of Lady over the years.
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| Sleeping Lady |
I Love Dogs, I Love Animals, I Love My Friends and I Love Ling.
Bye-bees~
Thursday, 8 August 2013
The way my parents talk
This week I have been acting a little weird and I feel like I am not really my normal self. I am slowly starting like being by myself though I still rather being with someone else. Rebecca seemed to noticed my off behaviour and questioned it today. I am slightly surprised at how intuitive she is about these things but she is my best friend and it seems fair that she picks up these things like I would for her (at least I hope I do). I am quite happy about having such a great friend like her. ^.^
Anyway back to my main point.
Since I have been kind of down lately I have begin to pick up some things around the house especially the way my parents talk to each other. I have then remember previous conversation they had together I found out 20% of the time they talk to each other in a normal tone as they talk about something but this won't usually last long as it ends with either complaining about each other or that my dad asks my mum to do something for him. 35% of the time they would begin to argue and they other 45% is the normal dad asking or rather telling my mum to help him with something which later could end up in an argument again.
This whole week there has been so much complaining between the two that I don't think I remember them talking in a normal tone to each other. My dad had also wanted me pick a side and basically wanted me to be on his side and argue against my mum. However I don't want to be a part of there argument and I definitely not pick a side between the two. I don't want to hurt anyone of there feelings even though inside I would seem to be on my mum's side most of the time.
What I really wish for though is being able to leave the house and go to a quiet place and hopefully just clear my head and study. In fact I am going to start studying right now.
So Bye-bees~
Anyway back to my main point.
Since I have been kind of down lately I have begin to pick up some things around the house especially the way my parents talk to each other. I have then remember previous conversation they had together I found out 20% of the time they talk to each other in a normal tone as they talk about something but this won't usually last long as it ends with either complaining about each other or that my dad asks my mum to do something for him. 35% of the time they would begin to argue and they other 45% is the normal dad asking or rather telling my mum to help him with something which later could end up in an argument again.
This whole week there has been so much complaining between the two that I don't think I remember them talking in a normal tone to each other. My dad had also wanted me pick a side and basically wanted me to be on his side and argue against my mum. However I don't want to be a part of there argument and I definitely not pick a side between the two. I don't want to hurt anyone of there feelings even though inside I would seem to be on my mum's side most of the time.
What I really wish for though is being able to leave the house and go to a quiet place and hopefully just clear my head and study. In fact I am going to start studying right now.
So Bye-bees~
Wednesday, 7 August 2013
Lost of Appetite~
I think there is something wrong with me right now. There is times in the day that I just don't want to eat anything and normally I would be hungry and really want to eat.
It started on Monday, I think around dinner. I was eating less than I normal would during dinner, I wasn't feeling hungry enough. For a moment I thought that I would be hungry further through the night however it never came. Yesterday, during lunch time around the time I normal be hungry and buy lunch from the school canteen, I didn't feel like eating anything though I was hungry for the wafers I brought to school that day. For that day, I didn't have lunch at all and somehow the wafers seem to kept me from being hungry.
My mum picked me up that afternoon and I mention to her about not eating lunch, after she questioned me about not eating we brought some chinese food to eat however not even finish half of it I was already full. For dinner (which was around an hour after I was full of the chinese food), I drank half a bowl of my favourite soup that my mum had made. Half the reason was that I was full the other was I wanted to get away from my parents arguments about money.
Today was a little bit better than yesterday as I brought lunch this time but I wasn't able to finish it as I would normally be able to. I ate half of it before realising I was full therefore I wrapped it up and decided to save it for later when I was hungry again (though I never really ended up eating it again). I brought oreo's today to share with my friends most of them were given to my friends as I only had one but that was ok for me since I didn't really want to eat it. After school D.H and I decided to stay behind for Homework club where we took some biscuits to eat which I only ate a 4 until I was full. (>~<)
I am starting to worry about not eating enough or if there is something wrong that is causing this loss of appetite. During dinner today I tried to eat as much as I can where I finally reach the minimum amount I would usually eat which is better than the previous meals I have had so far. Hope I can find my appetite 2morrow and eat properly T^T
Bye-bees~
It started on Monday, I think around dinner. I was eating less than I normal would during dinner, I wasn't feeling hungry enough. For a moment I thought that I would be hungry further through the night however it never came. Yesterday, during lunch time around the time I normal be hungry and buy lunch from the school canteen, I didn't feel like eating anything though I was hungry for the wafers I brought to school that day. For that day, I didn't have lunch at all and somehow the wafers seem to kept me from being hungry.
My mum picked me up that afternoon and I mention to her about not eating lunch, after she questioned me about not eating we brought some chinese food to eat however not even finish half of it I was already full. For dinner (which was around an hour after I was full of the chinese food), I drank half a bowl of my favourite soup that my mum had made. Half the reason was that I was full the other was I wanted to get away from my parents arguments about money.
Today was a little bit better than yesterday as I brought lunch this time but I wasn't able to finish it as I would normally be able to. I ate half of it before realising I was full therefore I wrapped it up and decided to save it for later when I was hungry again (though I never really ended up eating it again). I brought oreo's today to share with my friends most of them were given to my friends as I only had one but that was ok for me since I didn't really want to eat it. After school D.H and I decided to stay behind for Homework club where we took some biscuits to eat which I only ate a 4 until I was full. (>~<)
I am starting to worry about not eating enough or if there is something wrong that is causing this loss of appetite. During dinner today I tried to eat as much as I can where I finally reach the minimum amount I would usually eat which is better than the previous meals I have had so far. Hope I can find my appetite 2morrow and eat properly T^T
Bye-bees~
Saturday, 3 August 2013
Fete~~~
I have been anticipating for this day to come for quite some time now. I haven't been to my primary school for about 5 years and today they held a fete which they usually would every couple of years of so. Rebecca, Ling and M.V were going to accompany me to the fete and I had so much fun.
I woke up in the morning around 8:50 which is too early for me but I couldn't get back to sleep. Therefore I spent the morning watching 2 drama's that had recently updated there new episode before preparing myself before Rebecca to come over. When Rebecca had came over, she had helped me straighten my hair as I can not straighten my hair very well.
My mum had sent us to station once we were finished but I felt quite bad as I found out on that car ride that she wasn't feeling very well that day. I am very worried about her right now as she is sick and experience some paining including emotionally. I shall not dwell on the negative for now as this isn't the purpose of the blog.
Back on topic. ^.^
We meet up with Ling near a fountain that was close to the station before walking to Bangkok Snap for lunch. It was quite an enjoyable lunch as always and I loved the food at Bangkok Snap. So yummy (^v^). Anyway after lunch, we made our to the bus stop to catch the bus to mu primary school as we reached the bus stop, Ling bumped into some of his friends from school and one in which was a guy from my primary school, Michael. From memory, Michael was quite an annoying person though I didn't seem to have talked to him much in primary but still. Ling has also introduced the a few other of his friends and one named Byron which the name was very familiar as I know my mum had a friend who had a son name Byron. He was friends with another family friend I know and I had some contact with him in the past but not a lot. However, he likely won't be the same person and there is probably only a slight chance but oh well. (Btw, I have confirmed with my mum that the guy I met is the guy I remember -.-)
Reaching the fete, I texted M.V telling her that we are at the fete and that she should come out and meet us now. As we waited for her, we had brought a ticket wrist band that allowed us to get on the rides. As we wonder around the grass area where most of the rides were, I noticed A.Z with her group of friends waiting in line for a ride. We later parted with her and joined a line for a ride called the Sizzler and from memory I used to love this ride, had the tendency of squishing people and I had gotten bored of the ride the very last time I rode on it which was around about 5 years ago. Anyway M.V had later joined us in the line followed by A.Z and her friend K.J. The ride was quite enjoyable however I ended up squishing Ling and it was so hard trying to keep to my side of the seat (=o=). Sorry for hurting you, Hun. (T^T)
The next ride was called the Disco Ride 2002 it was quite fun all except that the seat is to big for me
(-.-). That might sound weird but as the ride went around in a vertical circle, my hips was hitting one side of the seat to the other. Not only did it hurt my hips but I had bumped my ear on one of the bars and later my wrist which left a bruise. Other than that I enjoy the ride. Also I had to thank Rebecca for trying to stop the ride from hurting my hips and I am sorry if I hurt ur hand even though you said I didn't (>~<). The third ride was this boat which rocked from side to side and honestly it was boring. No wonder there was so little people lining up for the ride, I ended up relaxing on the ride as I closed my eyes to sleep. It wouldn't be a bad ride if you wanted to fall asleep in though it does become quite dizzying. The last ride we went on was the Dodgem Cars (aka Bumper Cars), we were paired up Ling with me and M.V with Rebecca. This time around my driving was not bad and M.V & Rebecca had only bumped us once and we were already stuck in the middle a few cars so it didn't really count. (^.^).
We wanted to ride on the sizzler again however, it was around the time for the fete to be over therefore we left for the park. Rebecca and I were walking in front while Ling and M.V was walking slowly behind us. Along the way, I hear M.V call out you are cheating and the next thing I knew I saw M.V on the ground behind me. From what I understand M.V and Ling were racing towards Rebecca and I causing M.V to have injury herself. (=.=) Using Ling's water bottle we washed her wounds and had asked for a bandaid from someone that lived nearby before continuing on our way towards the park. I still can't take blood as it still creeps me out but I think I am getting better especially M.V didn't show that it hurt as much as I thought it would be.
We had spend the next hour at the park playing on the swings, see-saw, flying-fox and the monkey bars before we relax on the grass. Ling had talk quite a few pictures using his phone, Rebecca and M.V's phone. I didn't give him mine as my phone has bad quality and that he already has enough phones in his hand. Around 5:00 we left the park and made our way home, M.V's mum dropped us at the station before I caught my bus. I had noticed that Rebecca and Ling went to the plaza while I was on the bus. Curious on what they were there for and what they had talked about but I am just not going to ask. If it has anything to do with me I would know and if not then I shall just let it be for now, though I am still curious. (^.^)
Overall, I had a very enjoyable day with the people I love and care about. Thank you guys for everything. ^v^
Bye-bees~
I woke up in the morning around 8:50 which is too early for me but I couldn't get back to sleep. Therefore I spent the morning watching 2 drama's that had recently updated there new episode before preparing myself before Rebecca to come over. When Rebecca had came over, she had helped me straighten my hair as I can not straighten my hair very well.
My mum had sent us to station once we were finished but I felt quite bad as I found out on that car ride that she wasn't feeling very well that day. I am very worried about her right now as she is sick and experience some paining including emotionally. I shall not dwell on the negative for now as this isn't the purpose of the blog.
Back on topic. ^.^
We meet up with Ling near a fountain that was close to the station before walking to Bangkok Snap for lunch. It was quite an enjoyable lunch as always and I loved the food at Bangkok Snap. So yummy (^v^). Anyway after lunch, we made our to the bus stop to catch the bus to mu primary school as we reached the bus stop, Ling bumped into some of his friends from school and one in which was a guy from my primary school, Michael. From memory, Michael was quite an annoying person though I didn't seem to have talked to him much in primary but still. Ling has also introduced the a few other of his friends and one named Byron which the name was very familiar as I know my mum had a friend who had a son name Byron. He was friends with another family friend I know and I had some contact with him in the past but not a lot. However, he likely won't be the same person and there is probably only a slight chance but oh well. (Btw, I have confirmed with my mum that the guy I met is the guy I remember -.-)
Reaching the fete, I texted M.V telling her that we are at the fete and that she should come out and meet us now. As we waited for her, we had brought a ticket wrist band that allowed us to get on the rides. As we wonder around the grass area where most of the rides were, I noticed A.Z with her group of friends waiting in line for a ride. We later parted with her and joined a line for a ride called the Sizzler and from memory I used to love this ride, had the tendency of squishing people and I had gotten bored of the ride the very last time I rode on it which was around about 5 years ago. Anyway M.V had later joined us in the line followed by A.Z and her friend K.J. The ride was quite enjoyable however I ended up squishing Ling and it was so hard trying to keep to my side of the seat (=o=). Sorry for hurting you, Hun. (T^T)
The next ride was called the Disco Ride 2002 it was quite fun all except that the seat is to big for me
(-.-). That might sound weird but as the ride went around in a vertical circle, my hips was hitting one side of the seat to the other. Not only did it hurt my hips but I had bumped my ear on one of the bars and later my wrist which left a bruise. Other than that I enjoy the ride. Also I had to thank Rebecca for trying to stop the ride from hurting my hips and I am sorry if I hurt ur hand even though you said I didn't (>~<). The third ride was this boat which rocked from side to side and honestly it was boring. No wonder there was so little people lining up for the ride, I ended up relaxing on the ride as I closed my eyes to sleep. It wouldn't be a bad ride if you wanted to fall asleep in though it does become quite dizzying. The last ride we went on was the Dodgem Cars (aka Bumper Cars), we were paired up Ling with me and M.V with Rebecca. This time around my driving was not bad and M.V & Rebecca had only bumped us once and we were already stuck in the middle a few cars so it didn't really count. (^.^).
We wanted to ride on the sizzler again however, it was around the time for the fete to be over therefore we left for the park. Rebecca and I were walking in front while Ling and M.V was walking slowly behind us. Along the way, I hear M.V call out you are cheating and the next thing I knew I saw M.V on the ground behind me. From what I understand M.V and Ling were racing towards Rebecca and I causing M.V to have injury herself. (=.=) Using Ling's water bottle we washed her wounds and had asked for a bandaid from someone that lived nearby before continuing on our way towards the park. I still can't take blood as it still creeps me out but I think I am getting better especially M.V didn't show that it hurt as much as I thought it would be.
We had spend the next hour at the park playing on the swings, see-saw, flying-fox and the monkey bars before we relax on the grass. Ling had talk quite a few pictures using his phone, Rebecca and M.V's phone. I didn't give him mine as my phone has bad quality and that he already has enough phones in his hand. Around 5:00 we left the park and made our way home, M.V's mum dropped us at the station before I caught my bus. I had noticed that Rebecca and Ling went to the plaza while I was on the bus. Curious on what they were there for and what they had talked about but I am just not going to ask. If it has anything to do with me I would know and if not then I shall just let it be for now, though I am still curious. (^.^)
Overall, I had a very enjoyable day with the people I love and care about. Thank you guys for everything. ^v^
Bye-bees~
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