Wishful thinking

I really hoped he could come.  i really wanted to spend some time outside his room with him but we rarely ever do it.  it's too late for him to come but. . . i wish he will come after just surprise me but then again. . . thats wishful thinking.  like he once told i always have these things i wish he did but i never or rarely surprise him. . . so in some way i shouldn't expect him to appear in townhall at of no where especially after he finished work and feeling really tired. . . but part  of me still hopes that i will see him in the city waiting after the event. . . i miss him. . . sigh i gotta wake up and stop expecting him to come cause he won't.  wake up just stop hoping cause i will just get shut down =_= missing him