When you live with someone you love and don't have to worry about your parents life seems fine. All I needed to focus was to keep the house clean and learn to cook, though I must admit at the time I didn't do a very good job. But honestly, recently things feel really difficult and I am finding it hard to keep up with it. Almost everyday, I seen him something has gone wrong and I just don't understand.
Sometimes, I feel like he is being unreasonable and not understanding my situation. But then again I understand where he is coming from at the same time and I am just struggling to balance things in my life right now. I wanna be able to have time to be at home and eat dinner with my family but I always want days were I can just stay with Ling. Then there is work that just makes things so much more difficult. I don't know what to do right now. I am exhausted and just mental burnt out.
Everyday, I been contemplating about my life and things I wanna do but haven't done it and it bothers me cause I have thoughts that I think will make him Happy then again I am worried about other things and I don't end up doing it. I don't know what I am saying >.<
Sigh...
This week and a bit of last week as well doesn't seem to be going well with me and I am just constantly feeling upset and unhappy and there are time I am happy but everything else around just depresses me. I tired of life right now and just struggling to find a balance.
Sigh...
I am gonna sleep and clear my head, I guess.
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