Update my life.

So I had originally decided to quit blogging though wanting to record important moments in my life since I am such a forgetful person. But I had a short conversation with my BFF, I thought why not? I can update my life with her since uni is going to start and we both be pretty busy and I can record precious memories that I probs forget about specific details in like a week or two. So lets do a kind of summary of the how I have been lately I guess for any people who actually reads this blog.

So it has been a about 2 years since I actually blogged about my life. So I am defs still in uni because I had took a gap sem in 2017 which end up delaying my whole course for a year. I study Bachelor of Primary Ed and the uni I go is really strict on the structure of units and things like that. Of course coming from an asian family my parents of specifically my dad was not happy about this decision. Even to this day, I will here him complain about me wasting half a year of my life to attend a stupid wedding.

For me the reason was simple. I had two part time jobs, study full time the first sem and the pressure of working, studying and splitting my left over time with my family, friends and my beloved Snorlax (which is Ling the guy dated since high school). I also had to attend my cousins wedding in China and planned to go with my sister to other places at the end of 2017. There were so many factors that went in my decision of taking a gep sem in my second sem of 2017 and I feel that it was a right decision it gave me room to breath and kind of relax. Part of me do regret since, technically I would have finished uni by now but the gap sem i took I defs do not regret.

So in 2018 first sem, there were a couple of elective units i decided to catch u on since i couldnt continue my course until the sec sem. Lets say I passed one cause I went on another trip which ended up disrupting one unit and causing me to get an absent fail. But regardless dont regret it cause I ended up choosing an elective that I was really interested in during summer school this year.

Nothing else really interesting happened over the two years. I have a great relationship with my Snorlax who I have been dating for almost 6 years, he is my everything, my high school sweet heart and my first love. If I wanna be honest I am actually really jelly with a couple of friends I knew that are already engaged who have dated their bf for a short time then I have. I really want that for myself but I also understand that I actually prefer to be engaged and get married when I am financially stable and I know Ling (this is what i used to call my bf on this blog so might as well stick with it) feels the same way.

Another major event that happened over the last 2 years is that my dad is now undergoing chemotherapy and technically considered as retired now. So my family situation has changed, though my dad other than his health has not. He is still so... not sure what to describe him as... I understand he is going through a hard time. I know he is upset, frustrated and uncomfortable but my mum truly cares for him and does what ever she can to help him overcome this difficult stage of his life. But no.. he isn't even grateful about it and even goes and disses every little thing my mum does. Insulting her and yelling. I can't even take it that he is just so stupid sometimes. But he is currently pulling through and things is just going day by day sometimes he feels fine sometimes he doesn't. Nothing can be done, we just have so what fate/god or what ever the future might hold for him.

I still feel the same way about my dad, not sure that i really care about him like I am meant too. I even had a dream of him passing away and I didnt feel sad but sort of relieved. Relieved that my mum can finally live her life and not have to tend to my dad every need. She has worked to hard and she needs a break. She needs to care for her own health too... sigh anyway off topic a little i guess.

So yeah, family life is different but still the same in many ways. I got great friends and the best (well best for me at least) boyfriend. So life is like it always have been going up and down like a roller coaster never knowing what bend is coming your way.