Organising my thoughts.

Been meaning to post this in a long time. There have been things bother me for a while. One issue was the perspective people view my BF, no one likes to hear that there bf is crap or has all these problems unless well if u yourself are having doubts and thoughts about what ur own bf. See I feel that after ranting to my best friend about my problems with my bf, I feel like I left a bad impression of my bf to my best friend. There are things I see that I agree with what she said but she will never she all the good that I see in him and maybe cause I never say so but it bothers me that I have ruined my best friends view of my bf cause he isn't always selfish, a hypocrite or irresponsible in immature. Then again her view of independence is so different to how I view it.

Sigh... at times I wish I never ranted to my best friend about my bf because now I feel bad about my bf cause there are the good things that my friends will see and I probs never mention. Please don't judge my boyfriend from our problems because it is a bias view, my view and I don't think it is all that trustworthy anyway cause I don't remember everything that happens in an argument usually.

I love my boyfriend for everything he does and I never want him to change. I don't even care about his weight, I mean yeah he should lose the weight for his own health but I really don't care about it. As long as he can be happy and we can be happy that what matters? Sigh... to my best friend if what are judging him from the problems we have that I told u about then please don't cause I don't believe that is right. I would probs say things that make him seem worse then he really is cause at that point of time I am feeling upset about him and of course I would tend to make the situation look like it was all his problem but in actual fact the problem lies in both us.

Another thing is to the same best friend... I am sorry that you are thinking that I am ruining ur reputation in front of my friends but to be honest I never thought that it would be so important. Because I personally don't care if my friends trash my name in front of their parents because, not to be rude, I don't care what your parent think of me cause it is important. All I care about is howmy friends view me and how they see me not your parents. But hey if that is what worries you and is important to you then I will make sure not to use your name in front of my parents, however feel free to use my name for an excuse I wont mind at all.

I had another thing I wanted to talk about but I forget what it was on about but I know it is related to my bf... but I guess I can discuss this another time...