Funny thing I realised how selfish my dad is. He keeps telling me that he puts in parents first then his brother and then his kids. What hurts more was that he said that if his parents and brother were here he wouldn't even care about me care me cause I am third on his list.
But then I realised how selfish he really is cause his parents are not coming back and I guess half the reason his says this is cause he is guilty of how he treated them in the past. His brother is in America and not possible to move to Australia now. so all is left is me. But behind all this he is telling me that parents are more important indicating that I should be like him and care about him more than my sister and my future kids. His is telling that his he is the most important person in my life.
I think I can decide who is important in my life. If you think about it what kind of kid would treat their parents with so well but in return not treated equally. He even told me genetically how much ur linked with ur family saying that ur 20% genetically linked with ur kids which if u think about means ur 20% genetically linked with ur own parents as well and therefore your siblings are the most closely related person should siblings be genetically more important?
I don't understand him and I don't wanna anymore. Someone he thinks like that and treats other crap isn't someone I respect of agree with any of his views.
To me those who truly love you and care for you do not use you for there own benefit. If someone loves and cares for you understands you and if you are so important on their "list" they would think about you before themselves.
I admit I can be selfish at times too but compared to my dad it is just seems petit. I just can't believe him. He even says that your friends a pretty much not even related to maybe with only similar interest and in 10 years they would be gone. I don't believe this. Friends would last forever if you put in the effort to stay connect obviously your friends need to put in similar efforts. Friends are not people you can talk to and have similar interests. Friends are people you can connect with and let out your deepest secrets too. People you trust and cares for you and not ever friendship needs to be made with similar interests. Some people who have similar interest can be friends but not true friends if they can not mentally and emotionally connect with and trust.
Just everything my dad says is just stupid. I don't wanna be like him ever. If I am basically placed 3rd on his list then why should he have the right to be placed first in my list. the first person on my list should be the person who loves me no matter what I do and I can only think of a handful of people which are my mum, Ling, my best friend and maybe my sister. Though my mum probs come first cause I know that what ever I do she will always be with me and ling and my best friend there are very small chances that something I do that could break us apart but I say that they are almost impossible to do. So ling and my best friend is right behind my mum.
... Not sure what I'm getting at anymore. But all I know my dad just. . . sigh. . . no words can even describe it.
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