Just a random update.
Decided to change the name of the blog a bit.
Cause I felt it sounded better this way.
Hope you agree to. :)
Sunday, 28 February 2016
Suspicion
I hope this suspicions isn't true and I am believing it isn't but I cant help but wonder what if it is. . .
So I got a friend that means a lot to me, even though it feels like a long time since we spoken or even seen each other. We have known each other for so long and I really, really don't wanna lose this friendship we have. I know when the time is right she would come to me and talk to me and tell everything that has been going on with.
I don't often contact her at all. I understand her family situation and I understand how hard it is for me to contact to her but at the same time I have this doubt. You see our parents were friends but something happened and they don't talk. Since I haven't spoken to my friend, my mum believes that it is due to her relationship with my friend's mum which resulted in my friend's mum not allowing/wanting my friend to speak to me. . . Does that make sense. . .
Clear things up about the suspicion (just in case):
- My mum friends with my friends mum.
- Relationship went down hill.
- Result in friends mum stopping friends seeing or talking to me
I don't believe my friend would do this to me just because of her mum but my attempts in the past to see her when we both can catch the same transport to somewhere didn't end up lasting very long in fact only lasted 1 time but I believe her reasoning for it. I understand contacting her is hard. . . I just worried that my mum's suspicions are true.
Even if it is true I know that she is probably doing this to stop her mum bugging but inside she is finding away to hide it. . . But I am choosing to believe that my mum's suspicion is wrong and that it just so happens that she has other plans at the same time that she can't get out of. . . Sigh. . . I really miss you and I really wanna catch up with you and there is so much things I feel like I don't know. . . I am really worried for you. Hope you are ok.
So I got a friend that means a lot to me, even though it feels like a long time since we spoken or even seen each other. We have known each other for so long and I really, really don't wanna lose this friendship we have. I know when the time is right she would come to me and talk to me and tell everything that has been going on with.
I don't often contact her at all. I understand her family situation and I understand how hard it is for me to contact to her but at the same time I have this doubt. You see our parents were friends but something happened and they don't talk. Since I haven't spoken to my friend, my mum believes that it is due to her relationship with my friend's mum which resulted in my friend's mum not allowing/wanting my friend to speak to me. . . Does that make sense. . .
Clear things up about the suspicion (just in case):
- My mum friends with my friends mum.
- Relationship went down hill.
- Result in friends mum stopping friends seeing or talking to me
I don't believe my friend would do this to me just because of her mum but my attempts in the past to see her when we both can catch the same transport to somewhere didn't end up lasting very long in fact only lasted 1 time but I believe her reasoning for it. I understand contacting her is hard. . . I just worried that my mum's suspicions are true.
Even if it is true I know that she is probably doing this to stop her mum bugging but inside she is finding away to hide it. . . But I am choosing to believe that my mum's suspicion is wrong and that it just so happens that she has other plans at the same time that she can't get out of. . . Sigh. . . I really miss you and I really wanna catch up with you and there is so much things I feel like I don't know. . . I am really worried for you. Hope you are ok.
Second Year of Uni
The start of my 2nd year in Uni is about to begin and how I am so unready for this day. >.< can't believe it Summer Vacation is over. . .
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That's all I have to say about it really. . . Another thing not sure if I should mention about it. . . It is about a old friend of mine. . . I guess all I would wanna say to her is hope she is doing well. I hope she is able to achieve what ever she is aiming. I am not sure how I would react if I see you on the street one day or if see me but oh well.
Hoping everything is well and good :)
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That's all I have to say about it really. . . Another thing not sure if I should mention about it. . . It is about a old friend of mine. . . I guess all I would wanna say to her is hope she is doing well. I hope she is able to achieve what ever she is aiming. I am not sure how I would react if I see you on the street one day or if see me but oh well.
Hoping everything is well and good :)
Old Traditional Housewife
I really hate my dad's view on women and it might sound like I am being very feminist. . . and maybe I am not really sure. But the thing is my dad's expectation on my mum is just. . . horrible and I really hate and disagree with it.
So he believes that since he is the sole breadwinner in the house that my mum has to take care of everything in the house and I mean everything. Like my mum needs to cook, clean take care of paying the bills and getting everything organised, and he even believes that my mu should do or the in old tradition as manlier jobs like fixing lights other broking things at home and mow the lawn.
I feel that nowadays things has changed and society has or should have gotten use to women earning money as well and is restricted to house chores. Women shouldn't be different to men at all not matter in behaviour, work life anything. We are able human and animals of this world we should be equal.
It feels like being with my dad you are restrict from doing anything without his permission. His word is only thing that matters he just wont back down on his words. Everything he says he believes is correct and no one else can correct him. At times like these I wish that my parents are separated that way my mum and me are free. We would have our free will again, we don't need and won't need anyone else permission to do whatever we want.
The other day I accidently let out the F word after hitting my head and he told me that is bad for a "Women" to say that would. I hate when he says that "Women" has to do this or can't do that. Who in the world stated that women cant do things that men do yes maybe a physique maybe be different but that shouldn't stop us from doing anything. Men can do girly things and not be discriminated and women can do manly things and not be discriminated. Though I feel that women doing manly things are more acceptable then men doing girly things but that might just be me thinking that. But I believe that we shouldn't be discriminated I just sigh. . . Yes I believe, I might be very feminist.
Oh well whatever, my dad is never gonna change and I got deal with it or leave. =.=
So he believes that since he is the sole breadwinner in the house that my mum has to take care of everything in the house and I mean everything. Like my mum needs to cook, clean take care of paying the bills and getting everything organised, and he even believes that my mu should do or the in old tradition as manlier jobs like fixing lights other broking things at home and mow the lawn.
I feel that nowadays things has changed and society has or should have gotten use to women earning money as well and is restricted to house chores. Women shouldn't be different to men at all not matter in behaviour, work life anything. We are able human and animals of this world we should be equal.
It feels like being with my dad you are restrict from doing anything without his permission. His word is only thing that matters he just wont back down on his words. Everything he says he believes is correct and no one else can correct him. At times like these I wish that my parents are separated that way my mum and me are free. We would have our free will again, we don't need and won't need anyone else permission to do whatever we want.
The other day I accidently let out the F word after hitting my head and he told me that is bad for a "Women" to say that would. I hate when he says that "Women" has to do this or can't do that. Who in the world stated that women cant do things that men do yes maybe a physique maybe be different but that shouldn't stop us from doing anything. Men can do girly things and not be discriminated and women can do manly things and not be discriminated. Though I feel that women doing manly things are more acceptable then men doing girly things but that might just be me thinking that. But I believe that we shouldn't be discriminated I just sigh. . . Yes I believe, I might be very feminist.
Oh well whatever, my dad is never gonna change and I got deal with it or leave. =.=
Thursday, 18 February 2016
Valentine's Trip
I hope everyone had a lovely Valentine on Sunday though. I might not have the funniest Valentine day but we did after all plan a 3 day 2night Secret Valentine Trip which I wish I was still on. I also just notice Ling's invasion to my blog >v< He is so sweet when he wants to be and I cant deny he spoils me a lot with love and gifts and surprises. I Love Him SOOO MUCH as well.
On our secret runaway for 3 days we spent lots of time just staying together in our little cabin watching the beautiful ocean view we spent some time watching tv, dining out, swimming and wondering the streets. It was truly the best 3days escape. Back in Sydney means back to reality which I dont't wanna face but I guess as long as I am holding hands and staying along side Ling I would go through any hardships.
Thank you Ling for the most romantic and lovely Valentine trip every. Btw any friends of mine who reads this remember if u ever see my parents I never went on a trip with my special Ling but with friends so SHOOOSH :P
LOVE YOU LING and hope everyone had a great valentine or will have a great valentine in the future.
On our secret runaway for 3 days we spent lots of time just staying together in our little cabin watching the beautiful ocean view we spent some time watching tv, dining out, swimming and wondering the streets. It was truly the best 3days escape. Back in Sydney means back to reality which I dont't wanna face but I guess as long as I am holding hands and staying along side Ling I would go through any hardships.
Thank you Ling for the most romantic and lovely Valentine trip every. Btw any friends of mine who reads this remember if u ever see my parents I never went on a trip with my special Ling but with friends so SHOOOSH :P
LOVE YOU LING and hope everyone had a great valentine or will have a great valentine in the future.
The Ling Invasion !!!
Greetings fellow followers ;) (Hope you have a wonderful and meaningful year!)
My name is Ling and I would like to commence the first official Ling Invasion (Mwahaha). Oh, my lovely girl does not know this so it is up to you guys to think about her reactions in your own imaginations and realms.
The persona Ling addressed in numerous blogs of my girl is me! I myself, have always been a nice and caring man for my one and only girl and I Love Her soooooooo much too. However, she doesn't know... You ask why? Well, that is because I like to give her surprises and spoil her until she drowns in my love (huehuehue). We have been dating for quite a while now and I must say Mrs Sakura you have done a fantastic job as being my girlfriend/woman (no further details please >.<). To be able to meet you in my life, I would have no words to describe but something like a Divine Blessing. And that is because ever since you became a major part of my life, I have always been happy in fact probably happier. You are a beautiful gem that is waiting to be unearthed, a special someone whom I cherish with all my heart and might. When your sad I can always make you laugh and when you are laughing because you're happy, I will make you laugh even harder to a point that you're unable to breath. I will always be by your side my Love, I will always be there to protect and worship you my goddess. I hope you like this Operation Ling Invasion that I have launched upon you, because i am IN2U, and I always miss you too and it has been this way ever since you walked in to my life. Your an Angel after all especially my Angel.
PS I Love You <3
Ling
My name is Ling and I would like to commence the first official Ling Invasion (Mwahaha). Oh, my lovely girl does not know this so it is up to you guys to think about her reactions in your own imaginations and realms.
The persona Ling addressed in numerous blogs of my girl is me! I myself, have always been a nice and caring man for my one and only girl and I Love Her soooooooo much too. However, she doesn't know... You ask why? Well, that is because I like to give her surprises and spoil her until she drowns in my love (huehuehue). We have been dating for quite a while now and I must say Mrs Sakura you have done a fantastic job as being my girlfriend/woman (no further details please >.<). To be able to meet you in my life, I would have no words to describe but something like a Divine Blessing. And that is because ever since you became a major part of my life, I have always been happy in fact probably happier. You are a beautiful gem that is waiting to be unearthed, a special someone whom I cherish with all my heart and might. When your sad I can always make you laugh and when you are laughing because you're happy, I will make you laugh even harder to a point that you're unable to breath. I will always be by your side my Love, I will always be there to protect and worship you my goddess. I hope you like this Operation Ling Invasion that I have launched upon you, because i am IN2U, and I always miss you too and it has been this way ever since you walked in to my life. Your an Angel after all especially my Angel.
PS I Love You <3
Ling
Thursday, 4 February 2016
Wanna Catch Up
I really wanna catch up with a particular person.
She has been life a little sister to me as well as one of my best friends.
Despite the fact, that we haven't met or spoken to one each other in such a long time.
She has been my longest friend reason why I feel like you are my little sis.
I worry about you a lot reading back on your blog,
it seems you had problems at school and I know about some things at home.
Sigh...
I hope you are alright.
Good Luck with study and HSC.
Hope we catch up soon.
“If” Plans
Today or more like tonight has been... horrible. I cried so much just listening thinking. I'm scared for my life sometimes and I am scared for my mums life as well. I don't wanna chose between my mum and my dad though inside I really already have chosen my mum cause with her I feel happy and free. With my mum I feel like I can say anything and I don't feel pressured or anything.
I am worried about my future. If I can get a job or not and make that dream of mine come true but I hope I can. Today. . . I heard a lot of yelling about my sis, about divorce, about how to split things and my dad kept asking who would I go live with if they did divorce. He thinks my mum brainwashed me in thinking that she is wonderful and that he isn't. To be honest it was never my mum who would have brainwashed me. It was my sister.
When I was young, my sister will tell me not to do this or that as well as tell me how bad my dad is and how selfish he is. She hated him and I slowly began to believe in her words. But I can't hate my dad cause he has been pretty nice to me and I can't do that even though I know he is selfish and all of his bad qualities but he treats me ok always trying to b on my good side. But I can't stay with him cause I will suffer a lot. I will lose all my freedom and I know it.
If my parents go through with the divorce, I have a plan. I wouldn't move in with my dad or my mum cause I dont wanna have to choose between them. I would like to move in with my sis but I know my mum would move in with her and there just isn't enough room. Plus I would like to move in with Ling a lot more. So I would move in with Ling. I am willing to pay rent to his parents and since I spend everyday with him I would like to pick up extra hrs of work so that I earn more money. Update with centrelink that way it could help me financially. I would start saving a lot more money cause I want to b able to be independent. I gonna learn to cook from my mum when ever I see her as well as from his grandma that way I can cook for myself instead of bothering Ling's grandma. I wanna try to at least visit both my mum and dad once a week so they don't feel too lonely though my mum would probs have my sis. That is what I want and I feel that way I get more freedom and I think I would like this life. I sort of want that kind of life if I can...
That's my plan. I just hope me and a Ling would last forever. He makes me so happy and I know he wants the family the way I want it. Just hope he is the one.
I am worried about my future. If I can get a job or not and make that dream of mine come true but I hope I can. Today. . . I heard a lot of yelling about my sis, about divorce, about how to split things and my dad kept asking who would I go live with if they did divorce. He thinks my mum brainwashed me in thinking that she is wonderful and that he isn't. To be honest it was never my mum who would have brainwashed me. It was my sister.
When I was young, my sister will tell me not to do this or that as well as tell me how bad my dad is and how selfish he is. She hated him and I slowly began to believe in her words. But I can't hate my dad cause he has been pretty nice to me and I can't do that even though I know he is selfish and all of his bad qualities but he treats me ok always trying to b on my good side. But I can't stay with him cause I will suffer a lot. I will lose all my freedom and I know it.
If my parents go through with the divorce, I have a plan. I wouldn't move in with my dad or my mum cause I dont wanna have to choose between them. I would like to move in with my sis but I know my mum would move in with her and there just isn't enough room. Plus I would like to move in with Ling a lot more. So I would move in with Ling. I am willing to pay rent to his parents and since I spend everyday with him I would like to pick up extra hrs of work so that I earn more money. Update with centrelink that way it could help me financially. I would start saving a lot more money cause I want to b able to be independent. I gonna learn to cook from my mum when ever I see her as well as from his grandma that way I can cook for myself instead of bothering Ling's grandma. I wanna try to at least visit both my mum and dad once a week so they don't feel too lonely though my mum would probs have my sis. That is what I want and I feel that way I get more freedom and I think I would like this life. I sort of want that kind of life if I can...
That's my plan. I just hope me and a Ling would last forever. He makes me so happy and I know he wants the family the way I want it. Just hope he is the one.
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