Today Afternoon, I didn't feel like going home early and I am not quite sure why I didn't want to return home. My dad would be late home from work so it would just be my mum at home so I usually won't mind going home early but for some reason I just wanted to be out. Come to think of it I have been a little depressed and kind of in a lazy king of mood.
So I had asked M.V if she is going to catch the train with me and she agreed which I was glad of. We decided to get some food before catching the bus home and C.t tagged along with us. First we left for the ATM so that M.V so withdraw some money before buying sushi to eat. After enjoying the lovely food in the small food court there we left for Easyway before arriving at our bus stop. As we patiently waited for the bus and had lovely conversation, well mainly M.V and C.t I contributed sometimes while other times I just looked from side to side as I listened to them.
As we continued to wait, I noticed G coming out of the train station and I thought " Hey if he is here, that means A.Z shouldn't be to far behind him" So I continued to look towards the train station however I didn't notice A.Z anywhere but I did see to of her guy friends coming out of it. Continued my conversations with M.V and C.t for a while before turning back hoping to spot A.Z some time soon which I did as she waved happily at me. At this point of time my mood has slowly begin to rise as my happiness level returning to its original state. I was glad she was here and I also asked if she noticed who was behind us and she nodded saying " Yeah, he was the first person I noticed." M.V later left for a while as she noticed a guy friend close by while A.Z's two guy friends came over to talk to her. A.Z introduced C.t to them as the 5 of us begin a conversation.
Once the bus arrived, we all began boarding the bus until we noticed another one right behind it which would be less full than the one we were about to board therefore ran towards the other bus. We went all the way to the back of the bus where I had also noticed G seating at right corner but I decided to ignore him since I don't want anything to do with him anymore. C.t and one of A.Z's guy friend called K.L but they were so loud and noise, A.Z and I didn't even talk much. Once M.V arrived her stop and jumped off the bus A.Z moved to her seat as we begin a quiet conversation. I noticed that G was very annoyed with the noises which seems to make me happy slightly evil here but oh well (:P)
As A.Z and I jumped off the bus we could see through the window that C.t and K.L didn't notice much of us leaving the bus. But I am glad that they seemed to have fun and actually I did as well. My mood had lighten up from that afternoon and I am so glad. Thank you ^.^
Bye-bees~
Tuesday, 30 July 2013
Saturday, 27 July 2013
How did I miss it?
I was watching this drama today and like every other typical drama of a girl and guy falling in love. In the episode I was watching the main girl character, Cheng Liang Liang 程亮亮, is asking her father about what he felt when he fell in love. Her father answered that he said his heart was racing and that he didn't want that person to find out. But in the end everyone knew he was in love with his current wife except him. Cheng Liang Liang didn't understand how come everyone else knows her father is in love with her mother except her own father and her father replies that the people has a way to trick themselves and not know who you really are thinking about. Once I heard this and I thought "Omg this is so true in a way."
Thinking back to that scene, doesn't it sound weird that you don't know who you really thinking about or what you really feel about a certain person. But once you have been through that situation yourself you actually finally understand what it means cause you have experienced it once before. I felt that before unsure if I really like Ling as more than a friend or not but slowly as day by day we continued to talk over skype I found that I do. I realised that I couldn't wait to get home, go on skype and start talking to him. I felt so happy just talking to him. Come to think of it, I wonder how I missed the signs that he was interested in me. He had called me when he was at the gym and we talked for until he had finished his workout. We would be on skype into early the next morning on the weekends and we also had some private conversations before. I probably should have noticed it especially when we had a conversation about where our friendship was at. I can still remember it so clearly when he told me that we have already past friendship but not actually at a couple stage. Even after that conversation, I didn't believe that he was interested in me even though at that time I really wished he did and that he would confessed. I feel so silly for not noticing but of course that doesn't matter anymore because it all turned out alright. Though I know he had some idea that I liked him cause I might have let it seek through when we had sensitive question conversation since I asked, " If I said I like you would you go out with me?" (I might not have been exactly what I said but it was around about the same thing). He told me he would probably think about it for a week and that he probably try.
There was so many things he did that showed me that he was interested yet I choose to believe that he wouldn't like me. I never had any belief in myself, I don't really have much belief in myself now but I have become more mature and a little bit more confident. I still worry a lot but that is part of my life. Anyway, It is funny how when we are trying to figure out our feelings and the feelings of the ones we like but we don't see the signs that would help guide our way but the bystanders seem to see it loud and clear. Yet the bystanders can also never pick up the clues when it comes to them. Of course there may be people at there that can connect the dots as easy as they can breathe, however our heart has a way to prevent all observations. Our hearts is like a maze so confusing and hard to find the answer we are looking for but once we do it brings us some relief.
Don't give up, keep searching cause we will find it just need to keep calm and search our hearts and surroundings cause we will find the answer or just ask around a bit other people seem to see things more clearly then you would. ^.^
Bye-bees~
Thinking back to that scene, doesn't it sound weird that you don't know who you really thinking about or what you really feel about a certain person. But once you have been through that situation yourself you actually finally understand what it means cause you have experienced it once before. I felt that before unsure if I really like Ling as more than a friend or not but slowly as day by day we continued to talk over skype I found that I do. I realised that I couldn't wait to get home, go on skype and start talking to him. I felt so happy just talking to him. Come to think of it, I wonder how I missed the signs that he was interested in me. He had called me when he was at the gym and we talked for until he had finished his workout. We would be on skype into early the next morning on the weekends and we also had some private conversations before. I probably should have noticed it especially when we had a conversation about where our friendship was at. I can still remember it so clearly when he told me that we have already past friendship but not actually at a couple stage. Even after that conversation, I didn't believe that he was interested in me even though at that time I really wished he did and that he would confessed. I feel so silly for not noticing but of course that doesn't matter anymore because it all turned out alright. Though I know he had some idea that I liked him cause I might have let it seek through when we had sensitive question conversation since I asked, " If I said I like you would you go out with me?" (I might not have been exactly what I said but it was around about the same thing). He told me he would probably think about it for a week and that he probably try.
There was so many things he did that showed me that he was interested yet I choose to believe that he wouldn't like me. I never had any belief in myself, I don't really have much belief in myself now but I have become more mature and a little bit more confident. I still worry a lot but that is part of my life. Anyway, It is funny how when we are trying to figure out our feelings and the feelings of the ones we like but we don't see the signs that would help guide our way but the bystanders seem to see it loud and clear. Yet the bystanders can also never pick up the clues when it comes to them. Of course there may be people at there that can connect the dots as easy as they can breathe, however our heart has a way to prevent all observations. Our hearts is like a maze so confusing and hard to find the answer we are looking for but once we do it brings us some relief.
Don't give up, keep searching cause we will find it just need to keep calm and search our hearts and surroundings cause we will find the answer or just ask around a bit other people seem to see things more clearly then you would. ^.^
Bye-bees~
Happy Birthday V.N and A.S
Today is a double special day because 2 of my friends' Birthday. I want to wish them a big
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~
A.S was my first friend in high school and we have been through a lot since the first time we met which happened to not be in high school but on our orientation day which was when we were still in primary school. A.S, Happy 16th Birthday and I hope you have a wonderful day and get lots of presents. May all your wishes come true on this special day.
V.N became my friend only about a year ago and we have gotten along with each other so well. She is always so happy and confident not to mention she is very intelligent. I miss her a lot since she left my school but I have kept in contact with her. V.N is a wonderful person and a more wonderful friend. Happy 17th Birthday Onee-san, I miss you and can't wait to see you again soon. I hope you enjoy your special day and hope that all you wishes come true.
I am truly grateful to have such lovely friends in my life. Don't ever disappear from my life pwease (^.^)
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, A.S
&
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, V.N
Bye-bees~~~
Friday, 26 July 2013
Clueless
Since I haven't been on my blog for some time, I had to catch up reading some of my friends blogs. I was one friend who was having so confusion in her life and parts of those I have confusion she is going through I remember experience in the recent past.
At dinner another, thought came to mind as I was talking to my mum which is how ironic it is about falling for someone.
You see when ever we watch a T.V series or drama and the viewers obviously see that the two main guy and girl characters are in love but they character seem so clueless. Every time I watch a drama that is like that I want to scream at the screen and say " You idiot that guy/girl likes you Why cant you see it?!?!?!?"
But you know it is funny how one we are in the same positions as one of the main characters in those dramas we are just as clueless. But instead of the viewers wanting to yell at the screen it is your friends there next to you giving you advice telling you that the guy/girl likes you or maybe yelling at you for not seeing the truth.
For my friend, I can say I have been in your position before and honestly my mind then was all messed up to not show what I really feel or what does those feelings mean? I slowly realised what did meant and how I really feel which brings a slight relief but then comes the problem of being with the guy trying to act normal and trying to find out if the guy might have the same feeling as you. Many things go through your head when you fall for someone and it isn't easy to get through because your emotions gets in the way of reasonable judgements. I can say from what I am hearing from her, My friend is definitely interested in him how much I don't know and how to deal with it, I am not even quite sure because when I went through it was all so. . . I don't know I never really want back to think about it much cause I am happy a where I am at now. I just hope for the best for my friend and that if she really finds out her true feelings, the person will have similar emotions as her.
Good Luck~
Bye-bees~
At dinner another, thought came to mind as I was talking to my mum which is how ironic it is about falling for someone.
You see when ever we watch a T.V series or drama and the viewers obviously see that the two main guy and girl characters are in love but they character seem so clueless. Every time I watch a drama that is like that I want to scream at the screen and say " You idiot that guy/girl likes you Why cant you see it?!?!?!?"
But you know it is funny how one we are in the same positions as one of the main characters in those dramas we are just as clueless. But instead of the viewers wanting to yell at the screen it is your friends there next to you giving you advice telling you that the guy/girl likes you or maybe yelling at you for not seeing the truth.
For my friend, I can say I have been in your position before and honestly my mind then was all messed up to not show what I really feel or what does those feelings mean? I slowly realised what did meant and how I really feel which brings a slight relief but then comes the problem of being with the guy trying to act normal and trying to find out if the guy might have the same feeling as you. Many things go through your head when you fall for someone and it isn't easy to get through because your emotions gets in the way of reasonable judgements. I can say from what I am hearing from her, My friend is definitely interested in him how much I don't know and how to deal with it, I am not even quite sure because when I went through it was all so. . . I don't know I never really want back to think about it much cause I am happy a where I am at now. I just hope for the best for my friend and that if she really finds out her true feelings, the person will have similar emotions as her.
Good Luck~
Bye-bees~
Protected~
It has been so long since, I have posted anything on this blog but lately I just couldn't be bother or just couldn't find anything interesting to blog. Today, YAY something I can finally blog because it is something that made me feel so happy and protected especially from someone I love.
Ok well this is a dream but small things can have big effects on me, so yeah. It can be a good thing as well as bad depends on who you put it.
Anyway back to my dream .
So last night I had a pretty good dream. It was short yet it made me feel safe, and happy. So from what I remember I was in some kind of bread shop that sells a lot of sweet cakes. I saw my friend A.S, she was like one of the employees putting the cakes in there rightful spot. They all look so delicious that I wanted one and I think I ended up trying to buy one but there was so much other events that happened that I am not even sure if I got my cake or not. Depressed it looked so yummy too. T^T
Anyway back to the dream.
I don't remember how Ling came in my dream but he was with me for a while before he picked up something to buy which he later left for the counter. I continued to wonder around with Rebecca and Anu before wondered back to where Ling was lining up as he was the second person in the line. After a few minutes in the line, a random old guy placed his arm around me tightly. I don't remember what he had said but I one thing I did know was that he was flirting with me. I was trying to break away but he had a pretty tight grip and it seemed impossible to break away. The next thing I knew, Ling had pulled me closer to his chest as I tightly wrapped my arms around him with my head against his shoulder. Ling had said something to that creepy old man indicating I was his girl which the old man didn't seem to believe and wanted us to prove it. we gave him proof as we locked lips which he later admitted defeat and disappeared.
I felt so protected and happy. Once the guy had left Ling teased me a bit like he usually would and I responded with my usual "Hey" and a slight glare. It was a great dream, I won't forget that warmth, happiness and sense of security through that hug and his protective arm around me. (^v^)
The scene shall always bring a smile across my face and hopefully when I am feeling insecure which I normal am (:P).
Bye-bees
Ok well this is a dream but small things can have big effects on me, so yeah. It can be a good thing as well as bad depends on who you put it.
Anyway back to my dream .
So last night I had a pretty good dream. It was short yet it made me feel safe, and happy. So from what I remember I was in some kind of bread shop that sells a lot of sweet cakes. I saw my friend A.S, she was like one of the employees putting the cakes in there rightful spot. They all look so delicious that I wanted one and I think I ended up trying to buy one but there was so much other events that happened that I am not even sure if I got my cake or not. Depressed it looked so yummy too. T^T
Anyway back to the dream.
I don't remember how Ling came in my dream but he was with me for a while before he picked up something to buy which he later left for the counter. I continued to wonder around with Rebecca and Anu before wondered back to where Ling was lining up as he was the second person in the line. After a few minutes in the line, a random old guy placed his arm around me tightly. I don't remember what he had said but I one thing I did know was that he was flirting with me. I was trying to break away but he had a pretty tight grip and it seemed impossible to break away. The next thing I knew, Ling had pulled me closer to his chest as I tightly wrapped my arms around him with my head against his shoulder. Ling had said something to that creepy old man indicating I was his girl which the old man didn't seem to believe and wanted us to prove it. we gave him proof as we locked lips which he later admitted defeat and disappeared.
I felt so protected and happy. Once the guy had left Ling teased me a bit like he usually would and I responded with my usual "Hey" and a slight glare. It was a great dream, I won't forget that warmth, happiness and sense of security through that hug and his protective arm around me. (^v^)
The scene shall always bring a smile across my face and hopefully when I am feeling insecure which I normal am (:P).
Bye-bees
Thursday, 18 July 2013
3 Months Ago
3 months ago something I never expected to happen to someone like me occurred.
That day brought me more happiness than I could ever desire.
Of course, Happiness comes with its share of worries that appear once or twice over these months.
However, the happiness seem to cover them up and brighten up my days.
If you have read my previous blogs than you would know that 18th of every month I would try and post up something for this special occasion which happened 3 months ago. That is something special for me and a moment in my life I would never forget. I remember on that day around about the same time as it is now that I am posting this blog I was with my sister as I revealed the news to her. My heart still in shock and contentment. I felt like the happiest girl alive.
Actually come to think of it sometimes I still am in disbelief that someone like me could ever get someone to like me. I never had the confidence with my appearance and characteristics would I ever allow someone to fall for me. I still have some doubts now. One question has always crossed my mind is why did Ling start to like me and what about me caught his attention and made me talk to me everyday since our first conversation over a social network site. Maybe, I shouldn't worry about why because love has no reasons but it matters cause. . . I am the person who worries about these things. Though I am not sure how or why I started liking Ling but I have some kind of any idea but that doesn't matter now because I love Ling.
Even though today I wasn't able to see Ling I am with him in spirit. I hope that his is feeling better from his cold. Honestly, even though exactly 3 months ago this was my special day I feel depressed and sick, lovesick. I miss him every night and day.
(I actually do feel a little nauseous but that has nothing to do with this.)
Anyways, I am happy we have reached 3 months and hope it would last even longer.
Bye-bees
Sunday, 14 July 2013
TIme to Think
Do you ever feel that you when you want to distracted yourself with something you can never be distracted but when you really want to concentrate you seem to get distracted a lot more easily? Well it is something I am going though right now and at times like these if I don't distract myself my mind will wonder and wonder to places I don't want to be in. In serious situations it feels like being suck in to a vortex of depression which I have been in a once this holidays and it was not a good feeling.
Since Friday I have been having a weird heavy feeling and I don't know what is causing it. Today the heavy feeling is starting to disappear but the after effect (especially since I have no one to talk to and distracted myself) is me over thinking. It is never good when I over think which now I have more things to over think about which also returns me back to me believing that I am a pushover. You see, I had mention to Ling what I though about me being a pushover and defined the word which later he agrees with this statement. From everyone I talk to about this problem only Ling has ever agreed with my besides my sister who always says I am and need to change. Overall my friends tell me that I am not are they correct or are they being nice? Maybe I have a different side when I am around Ling than the side I am with my friends. Either way, Ling thinks I am a pushover and I don't want to be view this way especially by him.
Honestly, I think I am quite innocent, gullible pushover and I am always so worried that a guy I like would take advantage of that. There has always been a question on my mind and I never had the chance or the courage to ask it. But I have always wonder what made Ling be attracted to me and I don't think I have any positive physical features nor many positive characteristics. I want to know because I have always doubt my on abilities of even getting a guy to like me. I know I should look on the positive side of things, believe in myself but saying it is easy but putting this to actions is much harder for me. I don't want to be taken advantage of even though there is a high possibility that I will in the future. I guess this is the reason why I worry. I worry because I fear that people wil take me for granted and I lose the trust in my own ability. Though I have people I do trust and believe that they will not take me for granted but it is just some other people that I worry about.
T^T This is the reason why I should not think because I start wondering into bad thoughts. Actually my train of thought has lead to other thoughts that has been sad about me which is pushing me further down this vortex I do not wish you enter again. This is probably be the best time to stop type clear my mind think positively. Be happy and positive and rest well for the day ahead.
So Goodnight and Bye-bees.
Friday, 12 July 2013
A.Z, R.Z and D.Z's outing.
On Wednesday, my family friend, R.Z, planned for A.Z and myself to go out to Westfield to watch a movie. This was something we use to do all the time on a tuesday of course I was a little pre-occupied on that day therefore moved the date to the following day. (If you are wondering my initials are D.Z) The three of us all have the same last name and it is a very common last name only that my last name uses a less common character than my to family friends.
Anyway, Back on topic.
R.Z's mum came over to our house to pick A.Z and me up and send us to Westfield where first brought our movie tickets before we left for the food court for lunch. R.Z brought Mcdonalds while A.Z and I struggled to pick what shop we should buy our lunch from. We both ended up buying chinese food from a shop right next to Mcdonalds. I never finished my lunch (>~<) After lunch we had some time left over which we used to go buy some snacks to bring into the cinemas. A.Z brought boost, R.Z brought Easy-way and they both brought popcorn to share between them. I already brought a drink from home therefore refused to waste money on buying another drink but I did spend my money on some ice-cream which I finished (^.^) . Before we entered the cinemas, A.Z pointed out to me that G (my first and old crush if you have haven't read about or forgot in my previous blogs) was in the ticket line. I turned to spot him with a few friends talking. As I walked towards the entrance of the cinemas I had turned to talk to A.Z and R.Z as they were walking behind me, I had noticed that G might have seen me walk away and watched me. Thinking to myself "Watch all you want. I am not interested anymore cause I have someone that is a million times better and love a million times more."
We had watched the movie "Epic" which was quite a good movie better than I had expected. After the movie, we decided to shop around a bit however we only viewed the pet shop which had the cutest puppies one in which looked like Lady when she was a younger. The puppy was a girl SIberian Husky we a grey white and brownish fur and two different colour eyes. She was so beautiful, I know one day she will grow into a beautiful dog just like my sweet little Lady (in reality my dog has never really been very lady like, thought I should mention.)
Back on Topic.
After the long gazes at the cute puppies we decided to leave for the arcade that was further up the street. Unfortunately I forgot the tokens I had left from last time at home therefore needing to buy some more to satisfy the time we spent there. The only games we had played is the DJ machine, Plants vs Zombies game and the Karaoke box which took up the entire afternoon but it was incredibly fun. The day had to come to an end as it was close to 4 as the sun has already began to set as we set off towards the park in wait for R.Z's mum to send us home. As we reached the last traffic light we need to cross, we bumped into G again (not literally) this time I am sure he saw me though not really sure if he remembers me but he should that (Grrrr~) play-boy. Come to think of it, I had made a big mistake for ever liking him cause I can't believe he turned about to be someone like that.
Ok, Back on topic. going off topic to many times (=.=)
Anyway, while R.Z, A.Z and I were talking, G had moved position from being in front of us to behind us and the last time I saw him. Waiting for R.Z's mum took some time but that was ok cause we had an enjoyable day together, gathering new memories which I love about. Around about the most interesting parts of my day (hehe ^.^)
Bye-bees.
Anyway, Back on topic.
R.Z's mum came over to our house to pick A.Z and me up and send us to Westfield where first brought our movie tickets before we left for the food court for lunch. R.Z brought Mcdonalds while A.Z and I struggled to pick what shop we should buy our lunch from. We both ended up buying chinese food from a shop right next to Mcdonalds. I never finished my lunch (>~<) After lunch we had some time left over which we used to go buy some snacks to bring into the cinemas. A.Z brought boost, R.Z brought Easy-way and they both brought popcorn to share between them. I already brought a drink from home therefore refused to waste money on buying another drink but I did spend my money on some ice-cream which I finished (^.^) . Before we entered the cinemas, A.Z pointed out to me that G (my first and old crush if you have haven't read about or forgot in my previous blogs) was in the ticket line. I turned to spot him with a few friends talking. As I walked towards the entrance of the cinemas I had turned to talk to A.Z and R.Z as they were walking behind me, I had noticed that G might have seen me walk away and watched me. Thinking to myself "Watch all you want. I am not interested anymore cause I have someone that is a million times better and love a million times more."
We had watched the movie "Epic" which was quite a good movie better than I had expected. After the movie, we decided to shop around a bit however we only viewed the pet shop which had the cutest puppies one in which looked like Lady when she was a younger. The puppy was a girl SIberian Husky we a grey white and brownish fur and two different colour eyes. She was so beautiful, I know one day she will grow into a beautiful dog just like my sweet little Lady (in reality my dog has never really been very lady like, thought I should mention.)
Back on Topic.
After the long gazes at the cute puppies we decided to leave for the arcade that was further up the street. Unfortunately I forgot the tokens I had left from last time at home therefore needing to buy some more to satisfy the time we spent there. The only games we had played is the DJ machine, Plants vs Zombies game and the Karaoke box which took up the entire afternoon but it was incredibly fun. The day had to come to an end as it was close to 4 as the sun has already began to set as we set off towards the park in wait for R.Z's mum to send us home. As we reached the last traffic light we need to cross, we bumped into G again (not literally) this time I am sure he saw me though not really sure if he remembers me but he should that (Grrrr~) play-boy. Come to think of it, I had made a big mistake for ever liking him cause I can't believe he turned about to be someone like that.
Ok, Back on topic. going off topic to many times (=.=)
Anyway, while R.Z, A.Z and I were talking, G had moved position from being in front of us to behind us and the last time I saw him. Waiting for R.Z's mum took some time but that was ok cause we had an enjoyable day together, gathering new memories which I love about. Around about the most interesting parts of my day (hehe ^.^)
Bye-bees.
Tuesday, 9 July 2013
Happy Birthday M.V~~~
Today is a very special day for a very special friend. It is my friend, M.V's Birthday.
I love her personality. It is so out-going and easy to talk to. When I am with her I feel so lightened up even when I am down talk to her make me feel so happy. M.V is always happy besides the occasional random angry moments which is not very often.
M.V I really hope that you have a great birthday and that you get lots of presents. I got you a present that I know you want and I hope you would like it. I can't wait for you Birthday Party this Friday. Never Change. Keep that Happy and Positive attitude something that I am always trying to each sometimes I have sometimes I don't but I just amazed that you seem to be have that attitude everyday.
Thank you for being such a
Generous,
Loving,
Friendly,
Kind,
Happy and
Positive
Friend of Mine.
I love her personality. It is so out-going and easy to talk to. When I am with her I feel so lightened up even when I am down talk to her make me feel so happy. M.V is always happy besides the occasional random angry moments which is not very often.
M.V I really hope that you have a great birthday and that you get lots of presents. I got you a present that I know you want and I hope you would like it. I can't wait for you Birthday Party this Friday. Never Change. Keep that Happy and Positive attitude something that I am always trying to each sometimes I have sometimes I don't but I just amazed that you seem to be have that attitude everyday.
Thank you for being such a
Generous,
Loving,
Friendly,
Kind,
Happy and
Positive
Friend of Mine.
Happy 17th Birthday
Maria
A Fun-tastic day
After having a sightly restless night, I woke early than I had set my alarm clock and was unable to continue sleeping. Somehow I felt so energised and excited that I didn't care that I only had 6 hours of sleep. So I woke up prepared myself in the early morning before leaving the house to catch the bus to the station where I was going to meet Ling who I haven't seen for over a week. This is the reason I had a restless night though I did stay up to twelve so I would be the first to text/post "Happy Birthday" to my friend M.V which I also have a special post about later. Anyway I was delighted to be going on my date with Ling I have been waiting for around about 5 days ago which was around about when we planned to go out.
We took our time as we traveled towards Broadway to watch "Despicable me 2" but before we brought our tickets and entered the cinema, Ling was hungry cause he hadn't had any breakfast. Neither did I in fact, but my mum did give me some warm milk tea she made as she didn't want me to leave the house without eating or drinking something. Ling and I enter Oporto like we did the previous times we went out and I recognised the waiter who served us last time. This time we order a whole flame grilled chicken and Ling wanted me to eat half of it however, I only ate 1/4 in the shop and the other 1/4 that I was meant to eat was eaten by Ling in the cinema. Thank Gosh, he ate cause I don't think I can actually eat the other quarter of the chicken. While he ate the chicken I had some of his poison-berry choc Ice-cream (only cause he told me to have some and it tasted quite nice) which I later passed back to him once he finished the Chicken. " Despicable me 2" was great, I loved every minute of the movie and to be honest I find it much better than "Monster University." The Minions were SO cute. I am not going to spoil the movie for anyone who hasn't seen it so I will just stop at the Minions are so cute.
After the movie, we left for chinatown into Galaxy world where I meet some of Ling's friends which I am guessing most are younger than him. I meet some people who I have spoken to on a social network site a few time people who were Andrew, Jacky, Kenny, Min and none of them looked like what I had picture them. Andrew looked so familiar to me, I have the feeling I have seen him somewhere maybe from my primary school but he just looked very familiar.
Anyway back on topic.
Ling and I hanged out with his friends at times others times we went our separate ways. The few times we hanged out with him included when we went on the bumper cars which I partnered with Ling. Felt a little weird there but oh well. Ling achieved the highest score on the Hammer-strength game which the second one he was beating his own. Hehe. My strong and handsome, Ling. (He looked really cool when he was hitting the hammer down and he is all mine *glare* No one can take him. MWAHAHAHA~~~ ^v^) Sowwie went a little crazy there. Ling had got high scores than everyone of his friends in both the Hammer-strength game and the Punching Bag- Strength Game. I have noticed throughout the day I spent with Ling and his friends that he was like the alpha male the one that all of them would listen to him. How I admire that leadership and I believe that he can go far in life as long as he put his mind to it. I like this side of him, the side where he takes control of course I don't want him to take all the control in the relationship cause I don't want to be seen as a pushover which I know some has already commented that I'm not but not matter what I still have that little voice that says I am.
Back on topic.
I had also meet Ling's best friend in primary school and someone that goes to his school called, Harry. He seemed to spend most of his time on the car racing game which he was quite good at as well. I did also seem him later on one of those token machines where you drop coins into a machine in hope for more coins.
After Galaxy world, we left his group of friends and enter a small street like place in chinatown to find something to eat. LIng brought Ice-cream again this time it had Honey-comb and Poison Berry flavour this is when I noticed that Ling seem to like Poison Berry flavoured Ice-cream which he later told me to remember that it was his favourite flavour. Ling had also brought 2 different-looking dumplings, 2 what looked-like spring rolls and 2 egg tarts which from the whole bunch I took like half of it (maybe a little more >v<). Ling didn't want to take pictures today either so I decided to just let it be for today I was actually felt really tired at that moment and couldn't be bother even persuading him in going into one nor did I feel bother in taking photos. We wonder around a bit before deciding to walk back to the station and go home not before stopping at a 7eleven store as Ling wanted a I-tunes card. I was so tired at the end of the day that I could barely open my eyes on the bus and I can barely open my eyes now but I promised my friend that I would blog about my day so here I am. I am also waiting for Rebecca to go on a social network site so I can talk to her but it seems like she won't be on today but I will wait a little longer in case.
Anyway this was my day. A GREAT DAY. I loved every minute of it. (^v^) But I have to say it took a lot out of me, I really need sleep =.= so. . .
Bye-bees~
We took our time as we traveled towards Broadway to watch "Despicable me 2" but before we brought our tickets and entered the cinema, Ling was hungry cause he hadn't had any breakfast. Neither did I in fact, but my mum did give me some warm milk tea she made as she didn't want me to leave the house without eating or drinking something. Ling and I enter Oporto like we did the previous times we went out and I recognised the waiter who served us last time. This time we order a whole flame grilled chicken and Ling wanted me to eat half of it however, I only ate 1/4 in the shop and the other 1/4 that I was meant to eat was eaten by Ling in the cinema. Thank Gosh, he ate cause I don't think I can actually eat the other quarter of the chicken. While he ate the chicken I had some of his poison-berry choc Ice-cream (only cause he told me to have some and it tasted quite nice) which I later passed back to him once he finished the Chicken. " Despicable me 2" was great, I loved every minute of the movie and to be honest I find it much better than "Monster University." The Minions were SO cute. I am not going to spoil the movie for anyone who hasn't seen it so I will just stop at the Minions are so cute.
After the movie, we left for chinatown into Galaxy world where I meet some of Ling's friends which I am guessing most are younger than him. I meet some people who I have spoken to on a social network site a few time people who were Andrew, Jacky, Kenny, Min and none of them looked like what I had picture them. Andrew looked so familiar to me, I have the feeling I have seen him somewhere maybe from my primary school but he just looked very familiar.
Anyway back on topic.
Ling and I hanged out with his friends at times others times we went our separate ways. The few times we hanged out with him included when we went on the bumper cars which I partnered with Ling. Felt a little weird there but oh well. Ling achieved the highest score on the Hammer-strength game which the second one he was beating his own. Hehe. My strong and handsome, Ling. (He looked really cool when he was hitting the hammer down and he is all mine *glare* No one can take him. MWAHAHAHA~~~ ^v^) Sowwie went a little crazy there. Ling had got high scores than everyone of his friends in both the Hammer-strength game and the Punching Bag- Strength Game. I have noticed throughout the day I spent with Ling and his friends that he was like the alpha male the one that all of them would listen to him. How I admire that leadership and I believe that he can go far in life as long as he put his mind to it. I like this side of him, the side where he takes control of course I don't want him to take all the control in the relationship cause I don't want to be seen as a pushover which I know some has already commented that I'm not but not matter what I still have that little voice that says I am.
Back on topic.
I had also meet Ling's best friend in primary school and someone that goes to his school called, Harry. He seemed to spend most of his time on the car racing game which he was quite good at as well. I did also seem him later on one of those token machines where you drop coins into a machine in hope for more coins.
After Galaxy world, we left his group of friends and enter a small street like place in chinatown to find something to eat. LIng brought Ice-cream again this time it had Honey-comb and Poison Berry flavour this is when I noticed that Ling seem to like Poison Berry flavoured Ice-cream which he later told me to remember that it was his favourite flavour. Ling had also brought 2 different-looking dumplings, 2 what looked-like spring rolls and 2 egg tarts which from the whole bunch I took like half of it (maybe a little more >v<). Ling didn't want to take pictures today either so I decided to just let it be for today I was actually felt really tired at that moment and couldn't be bother even persuading him in going into one nor did I feel bother in taking photos. We wonder around a bit before deciding to walk back to the station and go home not before stopping at a 7eleven store as Ling wanted a I-tunes card. I was so tired at the end of the day that I could barely open my eyes on the bus and I can barely open my eyes now but I promised my friend that I would blog about my day so here I am. I am also waiting for Rebecca to go on a social network site so I can talk to her but it seems like she won't be on today but I will wait a little longer in case.
Anyway this was my day. A GREAT DAY. I loved every minute of it. (^v^) But I have to say it took a lot out of me, I really need sleep =.= so. . .
Bye-bees~
Friday, 5 July 2013
Hidden
Sometimes I don't say things cause, I don't want to hurt you. Sometimes I don't say things cause, I am scared of your reactions. Sometimes I don't say things cause, I want to test you. Sometimes, I just lose the patient for waiting but then again I don't know how to open it up. I have been wanting to tell someone how I feel about something but I don't know how to say it and I am worried about what will follow. Therefore I end up keeping it in but keeping it in makes my heart feel so heavy. I guess I rather hurting myself than hurting someone else but then I won't be able to take and I let it out on to other people I care about causing my problems then solutions. Why does everything have to be so difficult to solve? or maybe I am just stupid to solve. Another problem I notice I have. I am a pushover me and people can just walk all over me and I won't fight back. Why do I do this to myself? I don't know but maybe that is what people like about me because I am easily persuade and to have control over. I guess my dad was right I don't have the potential to take charge or be able to be the one that everyone else would follow and listen to. You see my dad had ask me the other day which one of my friends do must people like to hang out with or more like the head of the group. He told me that it might not seem like every group would have one but beneath the surface there is always someone that is the leader. I don't know how to answer him but know that I think about it more I guess Rebecca or D.H are the ones that would be leader of the group and can take charge as for me I was, am and always will be a follower. I might not always agree with people or do as the say every single time but I would mostly which still makes me a pushover. Something I hate about myself. Everyone can just take advantage of me. I remember my sister also calling me a pushover. . . I guess that is just me. I have no confidence in myself anymore or at least now.
I have no confidence that I have the ability to achieve my goals.
I have no confidence that I can change myself so I can take control.
I have no confidence that I will ever be the person I wish I was.
I just plain have no confidence and one big pushover. I admire my sister a person that is so strong-willed, that knows how to take charge. My sister has so much confidence she gets all the good genes from my parents I just get the left overs which makes sense since my nickname in chinese is 多多 which means more or properly translater the extra one. I might have a kind and innocent characteristics which is also the negative part of me cause I can be used and thrown as the anyway likes.
NOO~~~ I am thinking to much again or maybe I'm just realising the truth either way I should stop ranting and. . . don't know how to finish that sentence but I guess it doesn't even matter anyway.
Bye-bees.
I have no confidence that I have the ability to achieve my goals.
I have no confidence that I can change myself so I can take control.
I have no confidence that I will ever be the person I wish I was.
I just plain have no confidence and one big pushover. I admire my sister a person that is so strong-willed, that knows how to take charge. My sister has so much confidence she gets all the good genes from my parents I just get the left overs which makes sense since my nickname in chinese is 多多 which means more or properly translater the extra one. I might have a kind and innocent characteristics which is also the negative part of me cause I can be used and thrown as the anyway likes.
NOO~~~ I am thinking to much again or maybe I'm just realising the truth either way I should stop ranting and. . . don't know how to finish that sentence but I guess it doesn't even matter anyway.
Bye-bees.
Tuesday, 2 July 2013
My Number One
A girl is staring into space as she has her earphones
in and listening to a song that her Bf sent for her to listen to.
Her mum walks by and catches her daughter staring into the space
with a huge smile on her face and just laughing to herself.
The mum thinks to herself
"Ok, tomorrow I better get my daughter to a doctor. She is acting awfully weird.
Ok, well this didn't really happen. But if you didn't notice the girl staring into space was me and to just to let you know my mum didn't walk by. Anyway, Ling sent a song to me and typed "for u, hun." I accepted it and listen to the song, it had a long-ish intro but once the first lyrics came out I began smiling. It was a sweet, love song and I quite like it and very happy that Ling sent it to me. If anyone is wondering the song is "Number One" by Chris Brown ft. K-Mac.
I decided to also combine another blog that I wanted to post on Monday but didn't though it is all still related to my Ling. Anyway I started to draw again on Monday to pass the time and I though of a quote. I am not sure if I remember from a quote I seen a long long time ago or I just made it up by myself but I like it and used it in my drawing.
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| Torchic reminiscing about her past. |
If are unable to read the quote it says " I overcame my fear of heights cause I know that you will be there to catch me when I fall" Later I decided to draw a flash back that the Torchic was having after she said the quote.
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| Torchic's Flashback |
This didn't really happen to me but I do have a fear of heights and I believe with the right support I may just be able to overcome the fear. However I only drew it because I thought it was cute and a day dream of random sweet scenarios reason why I write fan-fics which eventually never get finished and also contains Ling nowadays. Anyway I just wanted to share this drawing which I am quite pleased about though the pictures them come out as well as the drawings but oh well. This is for my "Number One", Ling. Love you.
Bye-bees
Outing with M.V and E.W
Today, my friend E.W planned to go out with a few of our friends to watch 'Monster University' but only 3 agreed to go however one was working on that day and had to back out around the last minute. But that was ok, she missed out all the fun, Mwahahahahahahaha~~~
So E.W planned to meet up at 12:20 when the movie was starting at 12:30 which I disagree with the organisation but you know I should stop complaining usually I am part of the planning of outing between our friends. Anyway, I decided to go early to eat lunch before meeting everyone else which M.V decided to join me as well. E.W came early as well and was done at the cinemas lining up to buy the tickets therefore M.V made a way to the cinema in search for E.W. There was a crowd of people at the cinema and E.W was towards the end of the the long line of other customers. There was another line much short where we could have brought the tickets as we tried to convince E.W to come however she only decided to come after she heard one of the workers give information about buying tickets on the line M.V and I were in.
Monster University was not bad however I wasn't really interested in the movie in fact I could have slept through the movie or it could be just I didn't get enough sleep the following night. During the movie, I felt a little strange as the last past months every time I went to the movies it was always with Ling but this time was with my friends. Been so a long time since I watched with them, such familiar surrounding yet it felt strange like something is missing. Anyway the movie with my friends was still very fun. After the movie we spent the rest of the time shopping around Westifield which soon tired myself and a longing of going home to sleep. Before I knew it was about time for me to travel back home before my mum killed me for stay out too late. I parted with M.V before I parted with E.W to catch my bus and during the ride I spent most of it resting my eyes which I got better rest after I got home, showered and laid on my bed and taking a half an hour nap.
I have also forgot to mention that E.W little cousin joined us today but since I feel quite sleepy I tried to simplify my day as short as possible. But it was a fun and tiring day. Hope everyone else had a great day.
Bye-bees.
So E.W planned to meet up at 12:20 when the movie was starting at 12:30 which I disagree with the organisation but you know I should stop complaining usually I am part of the planning of outing between our friends. Anyway, I decided to go early to eat lunch before meeting everyone else which M.V decided to join me as well. E.W came early as well and was done at the cinemas lining up to buy the tickets therefore M.V made a way to the cinema in search for E.W. There was a crowd of people at the cinema and E.W was towards the end of the the long line of other customers. There was another line much short where we could have brought the tickets as we tried to convince E.W to come however she only decided to come after she heard one of the workers give information about buying tickets on the line M.V and I were in.
Monster University was not bad however I wasn't really interested in the movie in fact I could have slept through the movie or it could be just I didn't get enough sleep the following night. During the movie, I felt a little strange as the last past months every time I went to the movies it was always with Ling but this time was with my friends. Been so a long time since I watched with them, such familiar surrounding yet it felt strange like something is missing. Anyway the movie with my friends was still very fun. After the movie we spent the rest of the time shopping around Westifield which soon tired myself and a longing of going home to sleep. Before I knew it was about time for me to travel back home before my mum killed me for stay out too late. I parted with M.V before I parted with E.W to catch my bus and during the ride I spent most of it resting my eyes which I got better rest after I got home, showered and laid on my bed and taking a half an hour nap.
I have also forgot to mention that E.W little cousin joined us today but since I feel quite sleepy I tried to simplify my day as short as possible. But it was a fun and tiring day. Hope everyone else had a great day.
Bye-bees.
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