you know there is something wrong when you smile into a camera and all u see is pain. I was playing with the snapchat filters but all I could see in each of the filters was how hard I was trying to smile. Each time I smiled and looked at myself hiding behind filters I can just see sadness and it hurts. It hurt to so me smile so forcefully. It hurt my heart to just see me faking the smile when inside I was definitely in pain. But I don't know who to turn to... there isn't anyone to turn to.
It is all the same problems or the same pain... It has just become to repetitive and I don't wanna bother anyone with it but. my heart hurts, it hurts every time I smile and it hurts every time I think. I just want it to stop and go away. why cant it do that? why cant I just be happy?
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