Banned Finally

So, finally justice has been brought. The guy from the game I was planning that rich cocky hypocrite finally got banned. . . from the chat section. . . for 7 days. . .

Ok it isn't for long but justice is brought and hearing Ling tell me what he said to the GM's and other players makes me feel so happy cause I feel so protected with him. He email the GM on his horrible language on me and how this language he used can not be looked over cause no one should deserve that treatment. But honestly I think the ban is too late. He shouldn't be even allow in this server because he won't change. Sooner or later he will start another conflict cause almost all conflicts involves actually I mean all conflicts. I haven't seen one that doesn't involve him That is saying something.

If he is involved with conflicts with everyone than isn't it obvious who the many problem is. I wish the GM sees how this guys really is despite how much he puts in this game.

How Selfish can you be?

Funny thing I realised how selfish my dad is. He keeps telling me that he puts in parents first then his brother and then his kids. What hurts more was that he said that if his parents and brother were here he wouldn't even care about me care me cause I am third on his list.

But then I realised how selfish he really is cause his parents are not coming back and I guess half the reason his says this is cause he is guilty of how he treated them in the past. His brother is in America and not possible to move to Australia now. so all is left is me. But behind all this he is telling me that parents are more important indicating that I should be like him and care about him more than my sister and my future kids. His is telling that his he is the most important person in my life.

I think I can decide who is important in my life. If you think about it what kind of kid would treat their parents with so well but in return not treated equally. He even told me genetically how much ur linked with ur family saying that ur 20% genetically linked with ur kids which if u think about means ur 20% genetically linked with ur own parents as well and therefore your siblings are the most closely related person should siblings be genetically more important?

I don't understand him and I don't wanna anymore. Someone he thinks like that and treats other crap isn't someone I respect of agree with any of his views.

To me those who truly love you and care for you do not use you for there own benefit. If someone loves and cares for you understands you and if you are so important on their "list" they would think about you before themselves.

I admit I can be selfish at times too but compared to my dad it is just seems petit. I just can't believe him. He even says that your friends a pretty much not even related to maybe with only similar interest and in 10 years they would be gone. I don't believe this. Friends would last forever if you put in the effort to stay connect obviously your friends need to put in similar efforts. Friends are not people you can talk to and have similar interests. Friends are people you can connect with and let out your deepest secrets too. People you trust and cares for you and not ever friendship needs to be made with similar interests. Some people who have similar interest can be friends but not true friends if they can not mentally and emotionally connect with and trust.

Just everything my dad says is just stupid. I don't wanna be like him ever. If I am basically placed 3rd on his list then why should he have the right to be placed first in my list. the first person on my list should be the person who loves me no matter what I do and I can only think of a handful of people which are my mum, Ling, my best friend and maybe my sister. Though my mum probs come first cause I know that what ever I do she will always be with me and ling and my best friend there are very small chances that something I do that could break us apart but I say that they are almost impossible to do. So ling and my best friend is right behind my mum.

... Not sure what I'm getting at anymore. But all I know my dad just. . . sigh. . . no words can even describe it.

Is Money Everything?

what has happened to humanity? There is no justice, no care, no love anymore. As long as you have money you seem to get away with anything. Currently playing a game, called Super Evolution or Pika Q. It seems that the people behind the game seem to care more about the money then what happens to players in game that are getting harassed be spoiled rich teens.

In the server I am playing, there is a rich teenage kid who has an attitude problem (tbh not sure if he is even a teen). But this kids pays a lot of money in game and anything that people say that he thinks is offensive to him he begins making rude comments and calling horrible names. Anyone that is against gets the same treatment and he doesn't even let the conflict go on and on for days. People involved try to be the bigger person and take the high road and ignores him but there is so much you can tolerate

When I first reported this incident a couple of nights ago they told me give him another chance. Sure I give him another chance after he had multiple times insult my game friends, my bf and myself. But sure he deserves another chance right. That night he starts another argument this time I just for defending my BF got pulled into his rant where he called me horrible names one he used most was a "slut." A random guy, who doesn't know me at all and who said he is a teen using such words on a game is just not right. I have reported him once again but no response so far.

But I feel that my compliments will not be taken seriously because you know why? Because this rich kid would spend thousand of dollars in this one game and of course the game developers won't wanna ban a rich kid cause they lose all that money. So everyone in the server has to suffer from his irritating and bad attitude. Till when? This guy clearly has no manner and so hot tempered but justice won't be given cause money can take away everything. Who needs justice when you go money. If  spent more than him I probably get some attention. If I was famous I probably get people to respond to how horrible this guy is. Unfortunately I'm not. I wasn't given a silver spoon by birth like he is. Geez this person, this game. pisses me off so much.

First time in 3 years

Well so recently everything has been going fine between Ling and I. All my worrying and depression have all gone and today something happened that I felt might have just restore most of the damage from last time. You see, Ling have invited me to lunch with his family to celebrate his Aunty's bday.

So I arrived later than I was meant to cause I slept in but still I arrived around 11. Knocked on the window like I always do and everything was good and happy until I arrived at the front door. He came out and everything on his face told me everything wasn't good and happy. For the first time I see him cry so much and his eyes so red something that normally fits me but it wasn't on me this time.

I was worried that I shouldn't have come and that they were made cause he invited me but inturns out to be something different. It was the first time, I have seen this what Ling calls it his "Weakest side" and it was the first time I sat there comforting him hugging him and consoling him until he was back to his normal self. 3 years and I have never seen this side of him and I know I have heard him over the phone and everything but never seen it in person.

I felt so happy yet sad to see him this way. Happy not in a bad way but more that I was able to be next time in his time of need and there so I can comfort him and make that moment better than it would have without me. I was obviously sad to see him so depressed and it has been a habit for me to cry when I see other cry. Not sure why I do that but I tend to cry just a little while after someone else cried.

For example year 7 in high school my best friend started crying, can't remember the reason but because of that I cried and I don't even know why I cried so I just made up something so that it seems like I am crying for a good reason. Hahah... I don't know why I cried back then or cried today but it is just what I do. Maybe it is empathy feeling the pain or sadness someone else does. . . Not to sure but I cried with Ling, less then he did cause I tried to stay strong and positive for my love.

But I am glad I could have been there to help him. I felt even happier I was with him when he told me that today it made him feel more certain that he wanted me as his wife because of my presence during his time in need. This and or intimacy I felt with him today made me sure that today restore all or most of the damage from our last fight. :)