Curfews!?!?!?

Does it sound weird that even though you turn 18 but your parents still give you curfews? You know, in my dad's point of view that a child must be obedient to their parents and the must listen to there every command. So if your parents want there child to go suicide the child must be obedient and listen to them. Is that right? Are children meant to be like servants to there parents until they are older enough to repeat that same routine with their children?

I think my dad was born in the wrong era. Maybe in a very long time ago children are meant to be like that and obviously parents wouldn't want their children to kill themselves but still.

I know recently I have been coming home around like 6:30 to like 8 but to most people my age that isn't even late now. Late is like 1-3 am in the morning. I am not obedient but somethings just are so ridiculous that I feel I shouldn't even listen to.

I'm just soo annoyed, pissed upset. just so overwhelmed with emotions.

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however my emotions has calmed down a bit. Thanks to Ling for his own sweet version of so sick song. ^v^

"Where do the good boys go to hide away"

I was listening to the song "Hide Away" by Daya. . . (I think) . . . Anyway, I started just thinking about good boys and my relationship with Ling as well as I thought of a primary school friend who I have seen post this title on fb. I am know I am kind of competitive at times and always wanna look better than my primary school mates only cause I never seen to have been very popular or liked in primary school and I feel that I should show them how good my life is now. Not that my life is really any good now.

After think about that, I realised I shouldn't really care cause they don't matter in my life anymore and the people who does matter, I don't wanna compete with cause I just hope they can be very happy. I start reflecting on Ling and relating it to the song. You know, I am so happy with my relationship now actually more than happy.

I really love Ling and the thought of not being with him make me well up. I can't believe how he stands being with me. I am annoying a lot and I seem to do a lot of things that would irritate him. I am not good at cooking as he hope I would be and I am not that great in other stuff he likes like in games. I am selfish sometimes or maybe a lot of the times and he bares with it. He bares with my laziness and asking him to pick me up from places. He bares with the random tantrums I have when I get my mood swings. I don't know what I have done to really deserve someone like Ling.

It is a little bit less than a month before we reach our 3 year anniversary. I cant believe he would stay with me for 3 years. I can't believe my first ever relationship would last 3 years. I can't believe how lucky I am just to have someone like him next to me. I just hope I have enough luck to have him with me for the rest of my life.

People might see a few flaws with him and I too can see his flaws but than what kind of person doesn't have flaws. I, for one, have a lot of flaws and yet he stays with me. Ling always says love isn't seeing perfect person but seeing an imperfect person perfectly or something like that and I think that makes a lot of since.

I can't wait for our 3 year anniversary and I hope I can celebrate many more years of anniversary with Ling. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LING~~~ You are my imperfect person <3 (though u are more perfect than imperfect to me)

Do People Change After Dating?

I have the feeling that people start to change after they start dating from personal experience and reflecting on what I seen from people around me. This is only my perspective on things and possible in some relationships no one changes. But my theory is that the one who has more control in a relationship tend to cause the person they love to change. Or the person with the stronger will would change the person who has a weaker will.

From my experience, I realised that I have changed a bit maybe to some quite a bit. But I know I have changed. I also seen another friend of mine change and some other people I know but really not too sure about it. My sister from what I have seen has changed a lot though I cant judge it that much as I don't know that much about there relationship. However, to me it feels that my sister has a lot of control in her relationship and is very stubborn and independent. I don't know her BF very well but he seem to be very lenient to my sister and I feel that he just goes with the flow.

Sigh~~~ I don't know it is a theory and the reason I thought about this is due to something that happened today and a little discussion with a friend of mine.