Stages of Crying

There are 5 stages of crying for me from light tear in your eyes to the heavy crying with tears pouring down your face and uncontrollable breathing.

The 1st stage of crying is when there are just light tears in yours and the fall gentle down your face. Usually I experience it when I'm watching a sad scene in a movie or drama.

The 2nd stage of crying when tears fall freely down your face, your eyes becomes red and your nose feels a little stuffy. This is when you are upset about something. Maybe not something serious. Can't remember when I get to this stage cause I do cry a lot and usually it comes to this stage. Normally it is when I am my mum or sister scold me or when I'm just feeling upset about something.

The 3rd stage of crying is when you are crying a little bit more hard, breathing becomes a little more difficult, your eyes are definitely red along with your nose and it feels like it is blocked. Sometimes at this stage you might feel tired after cause your eyes feels a little sore. I get to stage a few times normally after arguing with my dad. I normally pass through this stage though and get to this next few stages especially when I become a lot more emotional after arguing with my dad.

The 4th stage of crying is when tears stream down your face, begin take in big breathes just to get some air, eyes and nose are red while your nose is blocked, your eyes are sore after that you feel more tired that night and you get a small headache. I experienced this recently over. . . something that happened where I felt horrible and bad about myself. I began doubting myself, over thinking things just feeling so depressed. At this point, after you manage to stop crying if someone or something reminds you of what happened, you eyes begin to form tears that falls down your cheeks. Not sure whether to mention this to anyone cause it is a personal matter but then I felt a need to discuss with someone. I have resolved everything that made me feel like crying but the problem is still present there I just not sure how to get rid of it completely. . .

The 5th stage of crying also the final stage of crying includes heavy crying, take lots of big breathes but still feel like you are not getting enough air, eyes and nose are red with a blocked nose, your eyes are sore after and feels heavy that you feel like you should sleep which makes it much better. After crying you feel like your head is hurting and feel a little dizzy like you cried at all the water and salt out of your body. I experienced this a few times not often but those few times have only been caused by my dad when he is arguing or creating a big commotion at home that I can't handle. Haven't gotten to this stage for quite a while and never really want to ever reach this stage either.

There might be more stages but this is what I have personally experienced. What makes me wanna blog about this is only cause I had reach the 4th stage very recently. The problem is resolved but the main thing of the problem is still present and I'm just having a hard time figuring out how to deal with it. Not sure whether I should consult with others or just keep it to myself. I don't know how I meant to deal with things now. I don't know what to do =.=

Do feel like we are drifting apart?

I was reading a friends blog and I notice how she mentions about a specific friend. I feel like she was so close to her did it mean that she was much closer and knew more things then I did or not (even though they are not now but. . .) 

I am a jealous person and I guess I would get jealous if someone else becomes closer to a friend of mine that I am very close with. It is almost 13 years that we have been friends and I still remember the many years in childhood we spent together and play with each other. But then I realised back then I still didn't know you enough. I feel like you kept a lot of things to yourself  and I guess understand but I feel as though you know me more than I know you.

I wish I was the kind of friend that you could trust and tell anything you won't with. I want to be able to help when you are in need. But it seems that we are so occupied with other things in life that we begin to drift away. I know we are still friends and this friendship will still last forever but the distance between us seems to be growing larger. 

I know somethings are hard to reveal to some people but I wish I was the kind of friend that you could dump your worries and anxieties or thoughts and I can in return give feedback, advice or comfort. Friends are there to for you whenever you need them and I wanna be that kind of friend. 

Hope we are not drifting off as far as I think I also hope that I am not drifting further apart from my other friends. It seems that I been decreasing the distance between my Hun and slowly increasing the distance with a few friends. 

>.< I don't know anymore