A wonderful start of the week

Partly back I guess. I been feeling a little down and I was gonna talk to Ling about it but I ended up not saying anything to him. You see, the first thing I woke to on a Monday morning was a the clashing of pots and pans onto the ground. Yet again, my parents fighting up something. How much things can you fight when u r a couple my gosh it is annoying.

My mum told me she gonna divorce my dad for the one billionth time. Should I believe it this time for a minute I wanted to. I wanted to believe that I would stop hearing the constant argument repeating itself over and over again. It is sort of like ur life is on repeat with. Sigh~ Maybe to some people that you would rather ur parents together then being apart but think about it. Do you really wanna live in a household where all you hear is arguments?

I really wish that my parents just say what they always say and get a divorce so I can live in peace but I know it wont happen. It never happens.

I stay at my BF's house often now and I am envious. I am envious at who wholesome his family is. Never heard yelling are argument just so peaceful. He has a happy and completely family. I wanting to move out of the house more and more but currently I don't have the money to do so.

I am just so sick of the arguments and I feel like at home there is no conversation where people are just speaking quietly to each and enjoying the conversation. I feel that every thing I hear at home are just screams and yells.

Ugh. . . I don't know. . .

I know not a lot of people would read this now but if anyone I know who reads this (are reads these post before though I feel there wouldn't be anyone else) I am not actually back I just needed a place to rant out somethings that are bothering me.

Bye Bye for Now